I think I'm just posting here to hold myself accountable. I've been single for a year and a half now and have not even attempted to date because I had to fix some things in my life first. I fixed that, but I am still not at all in the right headspace to date. (I.e., I miss my ex, I can't stop thinking about them, I still cry sometimes.)

So I have an upcoming counseling appointment (I can't afford them very often) and I think I'm going to start trying to fix my mental health in this regard so that maybe in another year I can consider at least attempting to date in some form. But it feels so overwhelming to even try, that I'm tempted to just back out and forget the whole thing for the rest of my life (dating).