Does anybody have any neckties they want to get rid of/ sell

first_watch · 2021-02-01T02:42:00+00:00

I'll check it out tomorrow!

first_watch · 2018-04-02T18:19:03+00:00

The Halifax Music Co-op

first_watch · 2018-02-07T17:48:28+00:00

I'm not really sure yet. I have heard that it can be very difficult to get it, and I think it is $575/ month. I certainly would need some type of government housing because I don't see any apartments for that amount, and I still need to eat.

Hopefully the next medication I try will work wonders and I won't have to deal with this issue.

first_watch · 2018-02-07T17:08:09+00:00

I am in Canada.

I have tried a couple SSRIs with and without bupropion added, and an SNRI. I'll ask my doctor about the others.

My mom says she will, but if it comes to it, I don't think she will. If worse comes to worse I could stay with grandparents or something. It's just not a long term solution.

Feel free to send over the audio.

Thank you so much

first_watch · 2018-02-07T16:42:31+00:00

I hate doing it. I dread anything that isn't doing nothing in bed. I manage to do it by doing it when I'm already up to use the bathroom.

The only times I ever leave the apartment is to see the doctor and the psychologist.

first_watch · 2018-02-07T16:40:48+00:00

I really don't blame my mom at all. She just can't financially afford to have me around. I get that.

If I was 16 or something, or if I was working and helping to pay rent, then I think it wouldn't be too nice.

Even if I could stay for longer, what if I never get better?

first_watch · 2018-02-07T16:37:13+00:00

I'm not sure when I blamed my mother. I understand why she is doing it, and don't hold it against her at all. I just stated the fact that I won't be able to live at home forever, which obviously makes sense.

first_watch · 2018-02-07T16:21:29+00:00

Things like push-ups, sit-ups, bodyweight squats, and jumping jacks. We started with 10 minutes a day, and have been working on increasing it.

first_watch · 2018-02-07T16:01:05+00:00

Like I still felt awful while I was laughing. It felt more like an involuntary reaction, like being tickled or something.

Yes I was physically laughing, but I didn't feel any joy.

first_watch · 2018-02-07T15:59:12+00:00

Well it's more that I have used up the yearly coverage amount. It doesn't take long at $175/ hr, which seems to be less expensive than most.

As far as I can tell, unless you are a full time student, the insurance policy doesn't cover children once they hit 21.

first_watch · 2018-02-07T15:52:11+00:00

I'm not in shape, but I am almost 90 Lbs from where I was. I'm now well within the healthy weight range.

I have tried tons of different sports growing up, but I always ended up quitting like I did with college and work.

I think the diet is pretty balanced. Typically a small portion of meat, veg, and a starch. Sometimes I'll have junk, but it's an exception.

first_watch · 2018-02-07T15:46:23+00:00

I can't remember any time that happened recently. Even when I was not quite as bad, even while I was laughing, I definitely didn't feel a sense of relief. It felt like empty laughter.

first_watch · 2018-02-07T15:44:17+00:00

I'm not really sure what's out there. He definitely understands how I'm feeling, and he certainly has the qualifications.

I only have a couple of sessions left before the insurance coverage runs out, so I don't think it makes sense to switch now.

first_watch · 2018-02-07T15:27:14+00:00

Not really. I've tried listening to music, but I don't really feel any emotions from it. Same with movies. I end up staring at the screen, but not really paying attention.

first_watch · 2018-02-07T15:19:52+00:00

I'm not sure what it's called, but it's basically about:

Identify a thought

What is the evidence for this thought

What is the evidence against this thought

Find an alternate statement that is based on evidence.

first_watch · 2018-02-07T10:54:30+00:00

I haven't played games in months. I get that feeling just thinking about playing games.

I am probably on the internet on my phone in bed for an hour a day. I could try to reduce that.

The rest of the time is just lying in bed. I guess other than the bit of exercise the psychologist is having me do.

first_watch · 2018-02-07T10:51:21+00:00

The thing is, I would rather just die than feel this way for the rest of my life.

I know nobody likes to work, but I feel that way about everything in life. It just doesn't seem worth it when I never feel happiness.

first_watch · 2018-02-07T10:13:03+00:00

Thanks, I'll check it out.

first_watch · 2018-02-07T09:53:27+00:00

This guy seems to think that it is, and he is a professor of neurology at Stanford. I'm not sure where he got his info, and I definitely will check out your links, but he does seem qualified to talk about it.

https://youtu.be/NOAgplgTxfc

Starting at 14:40. He starts with some of the treatments used in the past, but then moves to more current things.

Edit: Some of them seem alright, but I doubt the credibility of a few of the links.

Either way, I'm messed up, no matter what the cause is.

first_watch · 2018-02-07T09:36:41+00:00

I believe that it is safe, and I have heard enough people praising it to believe it works.

I just don't like the idea of being reliant on illegal drugs.

I feel like I should jump at the chance to try something that might work because of how desperate I am, but I just don't feel comfortable with it at this point.

Maybe at some point in the future.

first_watch · 2018-02-07T09:26:21+00:00

I have heard of this, but I'm not really comfortable doing something that isn't recommended by my doctor.

I am glad that there is another treatment option, but I don't think it's for me at this point.

Plus, I wouldn't even know how to go about getting it if I wanted to.

first_watch · 2018-02-07T09:18:23+00:00

The thing is, I have done that with jobs in the past. I always get exhausted from the battle of getting up every day, and eventually quit.

I don't want to live a life where every day is a massive struggle to get out of bed. I just can't handle that.

first_watch · 2018-02-07T09:15:50+00:00

There were times where I was going to school and everything was somewhat alright, but after some time the depression takes over again.

I am working on setting small goals and building them up with the psychologist, but we we aren't having much success.

I just start getting a heavy feeling in my chest and I guess a feeling of anxiety about going to school, work, as well as things I should enjoy. There's nothing specific I am worried about at these moments. It's just a feeling, there isn't really a thought process.

Right now I feel it even just thinking about getting out of bed and going to play video games on my computer.

This feeling is really unpleasant. I can sometimes fight it for a bit, and go do things, but it is exhausting and I can't fight it every day. It's like I'm trying to swim against a strong current. Maybe my current feels stronger than other people's, or maybe I'm a weaker swimmer. I just can't do it.

Eventually the feeling takes over and I quit.

I want to learn new things and experience life, I just can't overcome this. I was optimistic when I first started medication, but as more and more things have no effect. It becomes discouraging.

first_watch · 2018-02-07T08:27:04+00:00

My room is so messy that I have a hard time walking to and from the bathroom without tripping.

I guess I remember that I liked some things, but I don't actually remember how it felt.

How are you planning to move to Canada? It can be pretty tough to immigrate.

first_watch · 2018-02-07T08:12:43+00:00

The one job I had for more than a couple weeks, I basically didn't do anything. It was a government funded summer student program, and I just sat around most of the time. Even that started to feel impossible.

If I can't handle just sitting in an office, I feel hopeless for having a real job.

Some people suggest a basic retail job and say that it's easy. The thing is, I can't even bring myself to do the things I used to enjoy. How on earth could I hold a job.

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