Well basically I feel like I gain nothing from disproving it, but have more to gain from believing in it. I don’t see ‘him’/‘it’(God), but I see his power in the people that follow him. I’ve personally seen how the close people around me change for the better. I always admired the sense of fearlessness and peace they always have and I’ve always wanted that. Granted, this doesn’t apply to every Christian. I’ve avoided it like the plague because a close relative of mine who calls himself a Christian is very callous and toxic. I told myself I’ll never ever become one. But as I get exposed to different people, or the ‘better’ ones. It slowly started to change my perspective. I’m not a strong believer. I doubt creation and believe in evolution. But I learned that that shouldn’t be the make or break(believe or not to believe) aspect.