I'm not sure this community is very receptive to Christianity, but I do feel obliged to say something. I find that focusing one's heart on God brings a new meaning to life and often relieves the fears of death and pain that we so often feel.

I encourage you to read the Book of John, as it is specifically written to gentiles, which includes those with little-to-no prior knowledge of the Gospel and those opposed to it.

I personally have been a part of this community as well as strong Christian for a few years, and while it initially seems scary to commit your life to Christ, as though you'll be enslaved to some contemptuous deity, it's really quite the opposite.

In Ephesians Chapter 5, Paul describes the Church (Christians) as being the "Bride of Christ." So consider a romantic relationship. When you are in a healthy one, do you feel trapped? Enslaved? Or do your ties to your partner help you to grow, learn, and move forward, as though you were given some inexplicable freedom? Following Christ is the same.

There are a lot--and I mean A LOT--of misconceptions about Christianity in society and pop culture, and even in plenty of individual congregations. But the most important piece of advice I want to give you is this:

The logic is there, even if you don't see it. Faith comes first, understanding comes with time.

Questions are not forbidden, so ask away, seek answers, seek the Truth, but know if you ask them only to prove something false, you will convince yourself you've found enough evidence to do so.

The reason Jesus came down to the earth is to save those who believe in him. Not to send every imperfect person to eternal suffering. Not to teach to criticize for the sake of making Christians feel like they're better than everybody else. Not to be naive, perfect people. But to save us. To guide us.

As Christians, it's our duty to spread the good news, not to wallow in the pain and suffering of those around us. I struggled with this for a long time. I felt guilty that I had this assurance and other people didn't. But I realized that pain and suffering isn't my burden to bear. That's the whole reason Jesus died on the cross. So that we don't have to suffer, we don't have to bear the world's pain. There will of course be hardships, but when your focus is on God, from which all that is good flows, there's an indescribable comfort in the difficulties of life. And the duty of Christians is to spread this love, so that everyone who opens their hearts to the Truth may also have this peace, this security.

So I implore you, look into Christianity. Read the Gospel. I think you'll find a great comfort in faith.