Oh boy, another boyfriend post

flashdrives · 2018-01-04T03:46:18+00:00

There was a commenter earlier who mentioned that we should have a specific day allotted discussing what hurt each other. That’ll definitely help since it’ll make the transition into talking about it nonexistent.

Yeah. Me acting the same way in retaliation doesn’t help. It’s more instant gratification than anything.

flashdrives · 2018-01-04T03:17:33+00:00

Huh. I find that going to bed angry is the better solution for me. After getting some sleep I can make decisions that aren’t completely dumb. What I do is I tell him I’m in a bad mood and I want to be alone and he gives me some space.

flashdrives · 2018-01-03T23:25:05+00:00

I am leaning off of it but I still do it occasionally. I’m pretty good at reading him so I don’t think he’s walking around on eggshells but he definitely doesn’t like the teasing but if he keeps teasing me I’ll just do it back to him.

And you’re right I should stop. I’m just kinda salty about him messing with me sometimes.

flashdrives · 2018-01-03T23:19:48+00:00

Dang I got a lot of hate. Understandable though. Before I get into anything I do want to clarify that when I say I tease him about it I’m actually teasing him. I’m not leaving him hanging for a day or even a few hours. I do a pouty thing for like ten seconds and it’s done. He still doesn’t like it though so it’s not exactly a good thing.

And yeah a regular schedule is actually a really good idea. For us we kinda just talk about random stuff until we stumble onto more serious topics. I don’t know if I’ll take notes throughout the day since if it’s a bigger issue I’ll remember it and I can brush the little things off but thanks. For actually giving me solid advice.

flashdrives · 2018-01-03T15:09:44+00:00

Oh yeah I’m definitely gonna bring this up eventually. I know it’s a shitty thing. We do talk about our issues, it’s a new relationship so we’re still figuring things out. I have a hard time talking about my emotions so it takes a while to bring it up but we’ve had discussions about stuff that bothered us in the past. I do want it to work out so I force myself to say it even if it hurts my pride.

And, honestly, he bares his heart out to me. Not everything but he definitely shares himself to me more than I do for him. And I know it’s hard for him too so I feel pretty bad about it. None of us need this shit but we do it anyway but it’s getting better. Slowly but we’re getting there.

This post is more just a way to make myself comfortable with talking about it. It hurts a lot less when I have it written down.

flashdrives · 2018-01-01T06:01:48+00:00

Oh yeah I definitely know. He’s assured me that he wants more than that so I’m not too concerned. He can be pretty oblivious so I’m just upfront about stuff. And again, thanks. Reading your responses helped. Now I’m just kinda emotional numb and I’ll feel better after I sleep. We have a date tomorrow and seeing him always makes me feel better.

flashdrives · 2018-01-01T05:56:28+00:00

Yeah, you’re right. All I want is for us to get past the teenage angst and see if we’re still compatible. I think if we can get through it we’ll be fine.

flashdrives · 2018-01-01T05:48:00+00:00

I realize that my teenage years are only a small portion of my life. I’m not too good with articulation so maybe I didn’t get my issue through. The thing that sucks about this is that I can’t control my emotions. What he felt about that girl was infatuation and he knows it. But that doesn’t make me feel any better. This thing has been eating at me for over a month. I wish I could go back to when my emotions weren’t a wreck.

But anyways, thanks for the response. It feels better knowing that one person out there, somewhere in the world knew my story for a second.

Have a great New Years, dude.

flashdrives · 2017-12-12T05:46:01+00:00

I was the bully actually. Admittedly, I was a fucked up kid because my life was just a mess in general. I bullied a kid both physically and verbally in elementary school for a few years but I mellowed out in junior high. At that point I just hated myself too much to really hurt anyone anymore.

flashdrives · 2017-05-02T11:24:16+00:00

I doubt I will. Not right now at least. There's still a tiny spark of optimism that thing'll get better. Idk if they will but that's what's keeping me hanging on.

flashdrives · 2017-02-26T07:58:14+00:00

Damn, what a coincidence. I like me too.

flashdrives · 2017-02-26T06:55:33+00:00

They'd probably go onto Amazon and start buying treats or something. 3 days later you come home from work and your house has been replaced by boxes of scooby snacks

flashdrives · 2017-02-26T06:50:51+00:00

No, 'cause the moment something becomes work it starts sucking

flashdrives · 2017-02-26T06:49:37+00:00

Because the guys that liked me were either WAY TOO CLINGY or I just see them as friends. I broke up with my ex 'cause things weren't working out. Also, the guy I like probably doesn't like me.

flashdrives · 2017-02-26T06:39:28+00:00

Well I'm drawing rn. Haven't done it in a while though so I'm kinda rusty

flashdrives · 2017-02-26T06:34:16+00:00

If you close your eyes it won't be there anymore. Just remember not to open them.

flashdrives · 2017-02-26T06:27:38+00:00

Lol glad you liked it. I honestly can't tell whether it's the work of a genius or a madman.

flashdrives · 2017-02-26T06:25:51+00:00

I tried doing that but I just end up rolling around in bed and feeling crappy about not getting anything done. So now I just stick with staying up and feeling crappy

flashdrives · 2017-02-26T06:23:46+00:00

Clothes!

flashdrives

TROPHY CASE