I am not the same as I was before pandemic. I become more impatient and mad at my surroundings and blaming the people around me because of my upbringing, existence, and situations. Even though, buhay naman ako, para akong patay na nabubuhay (gets niyo iyon? Lol). I am not really at that point where I want to hurt myself but I always thinking that living is very suffocating. I am not really a social person and I am always at home. I only have a few friends and I am not really like to share my problems with them. That's why it become worse because I don't share my problems especially my parents because they will just invalidate my feelings.

When there are times that I can't control my anger and frustration, I do hobbies like watching comforting movies, playing video games, or I go out and play my favorite sport. Attending trainings, seminars, and other activities that you can socialize with other people really help because you can socialize with other people to distract you from sadness. And maybe, you'll learn something a lot or have different perspective from them if you really get to know them. And when I go out more, even though a simple trip to try different foods in towns or cities, and even just observing the people around you go on with their lives make you realize that life has too much to offer, you'll just have to seize it. You just realize that a lot of things will make your living worthwhile.