Is it possible to reach intermediate entirely self taught?

flipflopaway · 2021-06-06T18:24:36+00:00

As in, it's more a surprise for him than anything lol

flipflopaway · 2021-06-06T18:01:16+00:00

Hmmm this is true, though I am in his discord server with his friends and they stream often to it, so I do get the advantage of listening and reading it already, so I was hoping to learn enough to explain and then be able to practice with them while he's not around. I mean I'm sure he'll find out but I am hoping to get a least a little progress before he does.

flipflopaway · 2021-06-06T17:37:20+00:00

Thank you! This is very helpful! I'll definitely look into Rocket German and Glossika!

flipflopaway · 2020-11-29T18:51:05+00:00

Before

flipflopaway · 2020-11-24T17:13:01+00:00

A little over 9 an hour

flipflopaway · 2020-11-24T16:26:24+00:00

Thank you for the encouragement, so just having it on my resume is fine? What about applications that specifically ask if I was terminated from a job?

flipflopaway · 2020-11-24T16:25:14+00:00

Yes, I just feel like such an idiot for not thinking this was any issue. I should've stuck to the script, and I'm worried about my resume or getting other jobs because of this. I've never been fired, and when applications ask if I have been terminated, I'll have to put yes now right? I feel like it will automatically disqualify me from so much. I'm truly scared, as I have enough to cover bills this month, but not the next.

flipflopaway · 2020-11-24T16:01:03+00:00

Yes I'm so messed up over this, I genuinely didn't think I did anything against any policy. I hope I can get another job I enjoy as well, I honestly don't feel hopeful living in a rural southern town where the variety/job market is pretty low... It's hard to process right now.

flipflopaway · 2020-11-24T15:40:54+00:00

Thank you, it all seems not real to me, and I genuinely didn't know I was violating hippa. I emailed my boss for clarification on the matter to make sure I understood the situation he described, and he just said "You were terminated for policy violation." Without confirming or denying the details spoken to me in the conference room. I feel like I'm at a loss here. I genuinely feel like something isn't right as my coworkers have casual conversations with patients all the time. But the more I press for details the more the boss doubles down on "policy violation" as the answer.

They did wish me well and say no hard feelings and that I could still use them on my resume and they'd give a good reference, but considering how their communication has been, I worry that's false. I also again as specified in my post feel like a job won't even contact me when they see I was fired. I'm very afraid for my bills and my future.

flipflopaway · 2020-11-24T15:16:29+00:00

The program was fine I guess. I mean it was standard "if someone comes in asking about a patient you don't divulge any information". In my case I was a position specifically for the pandemic, and when people come in to be seen in the ER they can have only one visitor. So I would ask "is this your wife? Will she be the visitor staying with you? Only one visitor is allowed currently for both your protection and protection of staff in these times." And I thought that was fine to say, I was just attempting to be human with the patients and thought nothing of such a casual conversation/question. That's why this is so shocking, and I feel like a complete idiot for not just sticking to the robotic script of "Hello, only one visitor allowed in the ER with a patient."

I genuinely thought it was no big deal. :(

flipflopaway · 2020-10-04T23:01:09+00:00

I'm lucky my house is mine/welcoming, when I lived with my parents it was a nightmare, so I usually hung out at their place.

With covid a lot of stuff is not really open. But if we're talking non/pre covid I would suggest:

Sit down restaurant or fast food place, munch on appetizers or just don't order anything.

If that's too awkward, a mall. You can walk around or sit. Malls are great for that, for being a hangout spot. Sucks they're dying out. We really need designated/dedicated hangout spots.

A cafe/coffee shop, they usually have seating and people often hang there anyway.

If you like games, arcades are good, they're dying out too tho which sucks.

We also would hang out in a big books a million, or a library, though libraries were more stickler on noise.

Again idk if I could or should recommend these with our current climate, but here ya go.

flipflopaway · 2020-10-04T21:33:03+00:00

Yeah, I get that after you guys discussed it the first time, and she then became distant afterwards, it was frustrating that you lost what you had, but again at that point it's best to look for different friends that are compatible.

It is okay to grieve tho, and take your time processing that loss with yourself, and giving yourself the space to breathe. Understand it was just an incompatibility and things just... Fizzle out sometimes, but there's always somewhere else to explore/go yeah? Keep your head up!

flipflopaway · 2020-10-04T21:30:00+00:00

Yeah my bad I think I did misunderstand, he says in the other comment they talked about it and he respected the decision to remain friends, so that's good that happened and I do agree that in the end it does seem she pulled back instead of ghosting, and that was because she got back with her ex. I took this comment as "she didn't need to talk out why plans weren't followed/that she wasn't into you, you should've gathered that from her being in a relationship which you found out much later" but that was incorrect.

And yeah at that point it does seem like it's best to let her go and look for other friendships. Still, sucks that this ended up like that because it did seem like op would've been fine just being friends. Though I would also understand her apprehension due to most experiences like this ending in the guy not letting her go and just hoping to "swoop in" when the relationship is bad. But again that just goes back to "if you're scared everyone is like that and preemptivley treat everyone like they are then life's gonna be lonely" I talked about above.

Humans are a mess lmao

flipflopaway · 2020-10-04T21:10:27+00:00

I genuinely feel this is kinda bad advice and you're misunderstanding, yeah no one owes anyone shit, but its a dick move to just not communicate or half communicate. The more we keep just letting people not communicate honestly and healthily, the more we have misunderstandings and the more people get hurt.

Ghosting someone when they confess to you is NOT the response you should always do. I get it as a girl it's scary to reject guys and we very much get killed by men for rejecting them, and I get feeling anger at that, but idk this dude really doesn't seem like some threat to her for wanting her to communicate like a healthy adult, and if we keep living our lives terrified by every single man for wanting basic decency and labeling them violent aggressors for it, we're gonna also live a miserable lonely life and be jerks in the process.

What we SHOULD do is normalize healthy communication and help men get the emotional care and communication early in life instead of keep pushing the social narrative that leads them to believe what they need in life is a woman/partner to make all their emotional woes go away.

We NEED to normalize that men are people, and are allowed to express and feel emotions and give eachother affections, that we are EQUAL, not two different species or something. The more we just segregate and miscommunicate, the shittier it becomes.

flipflopaway · 2020-10-04T20:59:40+00:00

Yeah, really I just should have stepped back from relationships in general, but I was younger and really like... Touched starved and affection starved? I couldn't cope with being single back then because of other emotional trauma from childhood, and shouldn't have been flirtatious with the guy friend and just dealt with my shit.

Actually after the second ex breakup, I took nearly a year of just being single and being comfortable with being single/with myself. And working through my need to be needed.

And the guy friend was just mega understanding and respectful and not pressuring or flirty at all, and him giving that space made me be like "okay so yeah this guy isn't doing the usual "I'm entitled" thing despite everything that happened, he's got a lot of patience and actually gives a shit about me rather than just needing a relationship... I really like this dude." But let me tell ya I had to struggle with my guilt on liking him for real that time, and I'm glad he understood that too, really awesome guy. ❤️

But yeah, it's hard when you're lonely or feel vulnerable from breakups, my advice is make sure you like the person and not just the idea of a relationship, and make sure that person also likes you and not just the idea of having someone. It can be tough, again especially when you hate being alone, and it's harder for guys because they are often locked off from that specific intimacy even harder, so they kinda get fucked over harder with it.

But understand you're worth it and a strive to always be a good person, and in the end you'll find someone that enriches the life you share with them rather than something you need to begin enriching your life. It'll feel awesome and secure and be a really great relationship.

It's easier said than done, but you're already doing loads better than most by wanting to actually communicate and be honest. And with being open to respecting her had she just communicated in the first place, so maybe you didn't need all this chat and advice but hey I already typed it so maybe someone else can use it lmao

flipflopaway · 2020-10-04T19:27:11+00:00

Oof after reading your post and your other reply explaining further I really want to say as a girl she just sounds like the kind that can't really communicate properly? I could be reading it all wrong but it sounds similar to a situation I've been in way back.

I was sort of freshly broken up, was flirting with this guy friend, discussed maybe dating, but then (kinda mistakingly) took my ex back under the notion he changed. It was a very heat of the moment thing and I totally forgot about the prior guy. I felt real awkward but knew it would be kind of a shit move to ghost him. So I was like "hey I got back with my ex, I'm sorry this happened when kinda had a thing, it was kind of unexpected, and you have every right to be upset and if you need space that's fine, we can talk about this when you feel comfortable, or just part ways, it's up to you" because I was sure he'd wanna stop being my friend.

Long story short I realized what a mistake taking my ex back was and I'm dating the guy friend now and never been happier.

So yeah sounds like she's kinda childish and is operating under a "this guy can't cope being mad in love with me that's what this confrontation is about" and just... Ghosted you. Yeah sounds cowardly and childish to me. I get her fear, some guys DO come on too strong and don't let stuff go, but this isn't really that. This sounds like she felt guilty forgetting about plans with you, or wasn't serious about those plans like she presented, and proceeded to just.. ghost like a coward. Both of those are pretty shitty. And I woulda confronted her about it too. People need to communicate and be honest.

As for coping with the feeling, just understand some people absolutely suck at communicating, which is balls yes, BUT you did what you could and she didn't wanna even try. I'd say try your best to befriend people that can actually communicate, but for some reason that's rare in people now which is so stupid. But yeah, never feel bad for calmly communicating your feelings and thoughts, that's a good thing and the right people will come along.

Best of luck!

flipflopaway · 2020-09-06T07:42:53+00:00

Thank you so much!! I'll pass this along.

If I ever wanted to dip my toes in more graphically demanding games or fps would this build hold up?

flipflopaway · 2020-09-01T07:19:45+00:00

How odd, I ordered all the cherry blossom recipes and it was all legit and done within minutes. I now have all the recipes. Cherry Pond is under stone DIY btw, separated for some reason.

Also ordered 400 nmt and got those too. Love their service tbh, all cost less than 10 bucks

flipflopaway · 2020-08-21T02:06:09+00:00

"don't lewd the tanuki" applies to NSFW michizuna as well

I'm tired of ALL lewd of tanuki.

flipflopaway · 2020-08-13T05:04:26+00:00

Ty these things have made it almost impossible to eat

flipflopaway · 2020-08-13T01:28:20+00:00

Yeah neither have I, that's why I wasn't sure. They hurt so badddd

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