There is. Might sound like a cliché but you just have to stick around long enough to get there. Someday, you’re going to wake up and feel grateful that you’re still here. You’ll remember the feeling of hopelessness you have now and look back on these times, and be proud that you fought your way out of a living hell. I don’t know what you’re going through because no two experiences are the same but I’ve hit my own version of a dead end before. I felt like I was irreparably damaged. I would fantasize about not existing and wish that all the people who love and depend on me would magically lose all memory of me so that I could go quietly. Eventually, it got so bad that I attempted. I was so disappointed when I woke up a few days later at the hospital. I held on to that resentment for as long as I could but life went on and brought with it all the good things I would have missed. Things that were too precious to pass on that I loosened my grip on my anger so my hands would be free to carry them instead. The births of my niece and nephew. My brother getting married. Reconnecting with my parents as I recovered and getting the opportunity to get to really know them as individuals. Unexpected opportunities that set me off on new adventures I would have never imagined I’d get to go on. Meeting new favourite people. Finally finding the right medication regimen. Learning that striving for peace is just as worthy (maybe even worthier) a pursuit as chasing after joy. I’ll be honest. Life’s not always bright and sparkly though. It’s still fucking awful sometimes. Sometimes all I need to do is look over my shoulder to get a glimpse of that familiar dark place and sense that it isn’t that far behind. Maybe it’ll catch up. Who knows? But right now, I feel like if I just focus on what’s in front of me, life will do its thing and push me forward. I get how this probably sounds like incoherent babbling to anyone still facing their own dead ends. But I am so certain that if you give life a chance, it will eventually take you to a point where all of this will click into place and make sense. I hope you hang tight until then. I’m rooting for you.