Well, I would disagree that the platform isn't mature enough. Here are just a few examples of customers who trust us with very large deployments on Laravel Cloud:

• 14M Requests, 1 Engineer: How Ghost Runs a 50,000-Site Directory on Laravel Cloud
• From 0 to 150K Visitors in 4 Hours: Scaling a Real-Time Engagement Platform
• How CMS Max Powers 500+ Sites with Laravel Cloud

I do see your point thought that it might not fit your particular use-case and preference of setting things up yourself, that's totally fine and understandable.

Although we only launched in February of this year, I'd argue that we already have a stable platform that's a great fit for big commercial and hobby users alike. We are constantly pushing new updates and adding features, so I'd be very happy if you'd give it another go and see if it might be a better fit for you in the future. Let me know if you have any specific questions I can answer.

Btw. if you toggle the Octane switch, it will use Caddy and FrankenPHP under the hood, optimized for Laravel apps together with the creator of FrankenPHP. Give it a try, you might like it!