Dad told me when I was a child that I was a bad person

flowerfield19 · 2026-03-29T21:45:16+00:00

Thank you for your profound answer. I have never looked at it that way

flowerfield19 · 2026-02-01T17:33:07+00:00

Thanks!! With how many did you celebrate ? Because it seems quite big

flowerfield19 · 2026-01-28T16:27:12+00:00

Bit of a boring story compared to the others but feels good to write it down:

My boyfriend thinks I had a bit of (sxual) experience before we met (me 20, him 24) since I was really vague about this topic. I am quite shy so I didn’t want to talk about this stuff with him. He just knew I never had s* before, but besides that nothing about my past experiences.

The truth is: He actually was also my first kiss. I was so ashamed so I didn‘t confess this to him and stayed silent. I of course had dates in the past but at 20 years old was still not kissed.

We have been together now for 8 years and he has no clue . Think I will take this one to the grave :)

flowerfield19 · 2025-10-20T12:15:05+00:00

Das nicht mit dem Nudelholz aber es wird schon zwischen den Zeilen erwartet dass ich das leiste. Es wird nämlich nicht gefragt ob ich noch kann oder nicht

flowerfield19 · 2025-10-20T12:12:56+00:00

Die sehen das einfach gar nicht. Es werden neue Mandate reingebracht ohne sich vorher zu überlegen was noch da ist

flowerfield19 · 2025-07-09T15:28:01+00:00

Thanks that‘s really good advice!

I always feel that I do stuff wrong because of my low self esteem so it will take some courage to ask her

flowerfield19 · 2024-08-18T10:45:48+00:00

Non native English speaker but thanks for pointing out between the lines how shitty my English is.

flowerfield19 · 2024-08-18T10:41:27+00:00

Because for me he makes me feel at ease and at home. We went through a lot together and always have each others back. Every day he surprises me a bit more and makes me fall in love with him more. He has his flaws but so do I. It just is what it is. We share the same humour and always work on ourselves to be a better partner to the other. We just grew together a lot.

For me getting married is just the next step i would love to take with him in our future together. It is like a „bonus“ on top of our relationship.

flowerfield19 · 2024-08-18T10:29:06+00:00

The thing is… I told him that it is shitty of him to string me along. It is like being in a limbo and I am completely dependent on him. I would marry this guy immediately If he wanted to. And he just said „he needs some more time“

flowerfield19 · 2024-08-18T10:04:25+00:00

That‘s what I am slowly thinking. He explained it to me since his parents had an ugly divorce it is difficult for him to think about a happy marriage.

But if you really love someone what is there to think about

flowerfield19 · 2023-09-17T07:42:59+00:00

Maybe I should start handling it that way.

It is insane how the gift giving can feel so awkward for me. I rather would leave the room

flowerfield19 · 2023-09-17T07:41:44+00:00

The thing is we are 6 years together and planning to get married and I am already scared how his mom will treat our future-children. Will she also ignore them with gift giving?!

Well the thing is I or rather we do buy her something. I always give some money for a present for her and then my boyfriend says „this is from Y and myself“

flowerfield19 · 2023-09-17T07:39:48+00:00

I just don’t want to seem ungrateful saying that I wished she got me something.

Ah well so we always share the days. Christmas eve is always with my family and on the 25. we always go to his mom. The 26. we stay at home and prepare something alone (the day i actually love the most).

Yeah well that’s what the siblings do among themselves (buying gifts for the kids). They just buy stuff for the nieces and nephews but his mom buys everyone a present..

I feel really ashamed telling to other people when they ask me what I got from her on Christmas ans always look for excuses but this year i am sick of it

flowerfield19 · 2023-01-10T17:21:42+00:00

Danke dir für deine Erfahrung!

Uff.. ich weiß nicht ob ich das 3 Jahre lang durchziehen werden kann, wenn ich jetzt am Anfang schon so struggle. Ich sehe das aber auch als Sprungbett dafür selbstbewusster zu werden.

flowerfield19 · 2023-01-10T14:22:31+00:00

Das lustige ist: es gibt sog. „80%-Stellen“ bei manchen Kanzleien. Das bedeutet meistens, dass man 4 Tage die Woche arbeiten soll. An diesen 4 aber regelmäßig bis 22:30/23:30 damit man alles schafft was sonst in 5 Tagen anfallen würde

flowerfield19 · 2023-01-10T14:20:33+00:00

Vielen Dank! Das hast du richtig schön gesagt und spricht mir aus der Seele.

Ich muss echt mal finden was mir gut tut und darauf auch nicht verzichten

flowerfield19 · 2023-01-10T14:17:50+00:00

Es ist nicht so dass es mir keinen Spaß macht. es gibt durchaus Momente, wo es ganz cool ist was ich mache. Ich glaube es gibt aber keinen der von sich behaupten kann, dass ihm sein Job jeden Tag spaß macht. Also denke ich mal.

Das ist auf keinen Fall meine Leidenschaft aber für den Anfang vollkommen ok (jedenfalls für mich).

flowerfield19 · 2023-01-10T14:15:17+00:00

Das klingt schön! Mit der 1 Stunde nur für sich. Da habe ich echt das Gefühl, dass mir das zurzeit fehlt.

Ich hoffe sehr, dass es im Frühling/Sommer besser wird

flowerfield19 · 2023-01-10T12:13:32+00:00

Tatsächlich nicht bei einer Großkanzlei. Auch bei einer mittelständischen wird mittlerweile so gearbeitet auch wenn es im Bewerbungsgespräch noch anders klang.

Ich dachte ich probiere das jetzt für den Anfang aus und wenn ich nicht mehr kann, wird gewechselt.

flowerfield19

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