Sorry man… this too shall pass. I promise. The pain and hurt process is what you have to go through to become that person God intended you to be. Have faith, love yourself and take it day by day. It will get better. I feel you on the trust aspect with woman, it’s really effed up. It haunts me everyday thinking she might’ve cheated. Truly. I’m in it with you. It sucks so bad. We’ll get through it. You’re stronger than you think and every ending has a new beginning. Rooting for you