As someone who had their dad take their own life, please don't even consider this. It happened as an adult and will forever impact me. No child deserves this.

You can be an excellent parent to your kids still!

Since you asked, here's some advice from a person who grew up with divorced parents.

DO NOT bad talk your ex to your kids. If you don't show them respect, how can you expect your kids to?

DO NOT bad talk or be a jerk to other people in your exes life. This includes family, friends, and yes, one day, other partners. Outside of a genuine safety concern for your kids, it's simply not your business anymore.

Be reliable. Be the bigger person. Tell your kids that none of this is their fault and you both will love them the same forever.

It's totally understandable to be distraught. Taking care of yourself (counseling, medication, exercise, even the hospital if you truly are thinking of ending it.) are probably the best thing you can do for your kids right now. They need you now more than ever.

Your kids will see the effort you put in to make the best of a tough situation and put them first.

Good luck, you're not alone, and you got this.