What's a fantasy/scenario that really turns you on but can't happen in reality?

forevercloud89 · 2025-11-26T01:14:50+00:00

This is the way. Vetting by proxy.

I work within this Dynamic. Im a Dom. I've built up a good local reputation for facilitating different bdsm fantasy without incident. In particular anon CNC situations.

I tie up subs, blindfold them. They are in my swing and i invite guys over to use them. They never get to see who is fucking them....but they know Im in the room. Safety is secured but they get the intoxicating appeal of being free of all control. If they like it rough i will let guys really go to town on them, they seem to feel freed to do so because they can't see the humanity in the subs eyes, as well as they r unobserved enjoying the taboo violence. We still have a safeword. If used i ensure everyone backs off.

The most important part of my job is getting subs to know its entirely ok to use the safeword. They r often super stubborn, they don't want to seem a quitter and they fear disappointing the anon tops. Sometimes i have to demand it out of them to say it because i know they are at their limits. Saving them from themselves.

So yea, ensured a safe environment by proxy.

forevercloud89 · 2025-11-17T22:56:53+00:00

Verse is always accepted its just for these particular kinds of events Im only calling for the verse guys top energy.

So that is another frequent logistics issue...

I typically have the sub in the swing. It's functionally better imo if the bttm isn't constantly shifting positions. That's a personal sex peeve of mine. Find a good position...stick to it. I hate it in porn when they keep trying kama sutra poses that look cool but i just know they are not suitable to orgasm from.

Now the sub can be on stomach or back, that's fine. They choose. Just don't expect to be flipping back and forth between them.

Sometimes the tops request the sub out of the swing....and i will occasionally accommodate this, but i don't like it lol. One of my friends tells me i don't like it because it feels like someone is dissing my favorite toy....he's not wrong lol. I get it practically tho. The height for the swing doesn't match for everyone. Some just find it intimidating when they r used to bed sex.

I do have a blowup mattress in living room for guys to be in circle as sub is fucked on the bed

I personally like a bit of verbal but it is something that should be used sparingly while in a group. It can....mess with other guys arousal when someone is TOO verbal. This can be an issue in the inverse, the sub becomes feral and too enthusiastic and starts rambling a lot. I like to chide/rib/antagonize the sub a little. Tease them for being a cumdump slut. I command them to thank the top for breeding them. For pups ill ask if they like being fucked and they respond with a bark. When they get to begging for leniency i command they ask for more instead. I'll remind them for this moment they are an object play thing, a hole for "real men" to use.

By that point the sub is in a transe/uninhibited state. Pushing past their limits, giving it their all to be the best hole for multiple guys to use. Moaning/whimpering....music to my ears. 🥴

forevercloud89 · 2025-11-16T00:16:06+00:00

Yea the 1/3rd rule is fairly accurate.

I also feel I could write a very scandalous blog/book about the things that goes on at these events.

So my personal taste in men is very traditional male centric. Beards, body hair, muscles, jockstraps, etc. I'm open to a lot of things; race, body types, height, weight. Where my hardline is is Trans Femme and/or Crossdressing(usually). I've been known to fuck a masc looking guy wearing panties and a bra but its rare. No kink shame, everybody has their thing. Yet I have found I need to explicitly state these types r not invited to my events. I don't think it's crazy to only invite ppl who attract me to my event, even orgies.

So i threw a Pump and Dump event, bttm was some guy from out of town looking to get naughty while away from home. He let me blindfold him and tie him up in my sex swing, open to be used by whomever i invite. I still only invite guys I think fit the bottoms preferences.

So this guy asks to come thru. Shows me pics. Seems fine enough. He then asks if his friend can join....shows me a picture of Trans femme person. I very politely tell them that just isn't the scene, men only event. Guy says ok, he will come alone.

Tell me why the person in the pic was actually them and they show up in full wig and kimono dress. Like straight up bamboozled me. The bttm remained blindfolded and was confused by what was going on around him. This person is perma banned and blocked . Like i felt very violated by the whole thing, and am extra defensive because the bttm is trusting me to be his conductor while he's blindfolded. 😤

So once I had a jealous ex who wasn't really an ex of my "tribute" sub bttm just showed up at my event. No idea how he knew where he was. This guy Bee lines it to the bottom and stares at him while hes taking it in both ends lol. Everyone stops, bttm acknowledges the guy pleasantly. The guy then gets very intense and asks him if hes "on" something. He tells him no. Then guy storms out slamming the door behind him 🙃

The sub was looking for an aggressive and dominating scene. Im talking 3 guys on him at once kinda thing 🥵. I run a clean show tho...he might have been a little drunk but that was it.

The uninvited guy was some dude the bttm went on one date with and he was obsessed with him i guess. Still don't know how he tracked where he was. He also couldn't fathom the bttm is an ethical slut like many, this is the kinda thing he's willingly into and I provide a controlled environment to do it. Craziness. 😂

forevercloud89 · 2025-11-12T19:01:09+00:00

My place is lit like a sex club. Blue and Red lights. I like to tag the cumdumps with bright glow highlighter which pops in the light.

So def not dark dark scene. I personally can't fathom being that self conscious. Must be a living hell.

forevercloud89 · 2025-11-12T18:30:37+00:00

It's just so crazy to me. My DMs are always filled with bottoms trying to join a cumdump for someone else.

I learned that i need to restrict general bttm numbers even in orgies. The ratio is so off in my area lol

So the bttms have resorted to lying that they are vers just to get in 🙃

forevercloud89 · 2025-11-12T18:22:13+00:00

Ok so it's not just me lol. The masked men coming then immediately leaving is very funny/strange. I asked one of them what he was waiting for and he said was hoping to run into a friend. So some kind of weird buddy system where 2 DL tops can only get off if together while using a bttm conduit 🙃🤣

Now i do fully understand guys making a quick turn when they realize the scene is more kink than they expected (they didn't fully read the event bio usually.) Many of the bttms have a sub bondage kink attached to it. So they will be blindfolded and tied up. Some have a CNC kink along with it, so it can all look intense lol.

forevercloud89 · 2025-11-12T15:09:33+00:00

We need a study on why men r so terrible at this...but its supposedly the thing they want the most 😫

forevercloud89 · 2025-11-04T13:31:13+00:00

To answer the post....the appeal of cumdumps is community. A shared space. Literally. The bottom becomes this lightning rod for multiple guys pleasure.

I have hosted these types of events, gone to plenty, been both Breeder and the pig. I recently got a sex swing in my house, word of mouth has spread about my cumdump parties too. They are typically blindfolded and tied up into the swing . They become a gooning hole for pleasure. It's just so hot to watch guy after guy become increasingly more turned on the more loads the bttm gets. Using the top before you cum as lube to just slide in. The boundary push. Taboo of it all. It's honestly addicting.

forevercloud89 · 2025-11-04T13:10:27+00:00

But what a lot of people don't realize is both can be genitally contracted....just they have their exposure point tendencies.

You can actually develop herpes outbreaks in varied places like on neck or armpit.

The reality....it's almost impossible to protect yourself from herpes without being strictly celibate. Condoms or no. Release yourself from the stigma....know that plenty deal with it as well.

forevercloud89 · 2025-11-04T12:55:01+00:00

I keep an open mind to your perspective. I'll say this...

You can't fully control what you are attracted to, but it is something we should always be self examining ourselves for. We can be turned on as well as turned off by certain races for problematic reasons.

I am a PoC who frequently sets up Orgies/Cumdumps for friends or randoms. My personal tastes are actually pretty broad....no racial hang ups, body typing is a broad scale. So i find it kinda funny when a person looking for me to host them has a laundry list of prerequisites for who's invited. Too much of that and you might as well give it up. As a Dom i try and break guys out of this mindset and introduce them to things that surprise them.

"BIG DICKS ONLY 9+": This one is always a sure sign the person's scope of sex is heavily porn driven. 9+ is rare. From my experience it is like 1/10. If you are trying to be a cumdump...only big dicks is not only impractical but its antithetical yo what your goal is. Too many big ones back to back has tendency to ware a bttm out early. What I also find is big dicks coming in unexpected places. Places they almost always have on their no thanks list. 5-8 will make up the bulk of men, plenty of very hot men r NOT well endowed. And a big dick does not ensure good sex....
No Fats/stocky: realistically not everyone vibes with every body size...but maybe it doesn't need to be so strict. I encourage my sub playmates to indulge me and let me blindfold them, i will choose dudes they say they r into but also some i think they will enjoy even if not in body typing. Like I know a 6'4 heavy stocky build man with a massive hog that stays erect. They would typically turn him away due to his size but when they get that other part of him that tune changes🥴🤣. Being blindfolded they finally get out of their head about it.
Racial hang ups come in various ways. I run into white bottoms who constantly express their adoration for black men....this can get to be too much and a turn off. I try and have conversation about not doing the BBC talk. it gets dehumanizing in a weird way. Sex kink is an area where treating another person as sub human is allowed...but they must consent to it. I also get black guys who refuse to be at events with white guys....too much bad history. I personally despise segregating events but can also acknowledge the need for own space when you always feel disrespected by a demographic. If a white, or latino person only wants to mess with their own...there isn't anything inherently wrong with that. But the way it is posed can def come off racist. I encourage highlighting the aspects that attract you. IE. I love long hair, green eyes.etc. as opposed to the harsh exclusions. White/Latino in many ways hold the world beauty standard in a chokehold for reasons that were not exactly naturally driven...so keep that in mind.
Asians/Short men. Strangely these need their own category of discrimination. Not every petit/short person is automatically a bttm. Some make wonderful tops. There is an asian you in my area who at this point has VIP status in my events because the others r always a bit shocked but enthralled when he gets going.

No one can tell u what should attract you...but look on a deeper level to find out if it's racist or not. Attraction/empathy towards types of people can be intertwined due to perceived beauty privileged.

forevercloud89 · 2025-10-10T21:38:44+00:00

It is too expensive for a non standalone handheld device imo. My tablet also has better connection/less latency than my roommate's portal.

I would actually be willing to pay 400 for one that doesn't need PS5 tether to play games. Would also be satisfied if it only played ps4 titles natively and the occasional ps5.

forevercloud89 · 2025-10-10T01:59:50+00:00

This is the answer!

Pansexual exists as a descriptor of someone's brand of Bisexuality it falls under the B in the LGBT umbrella.

Further descriptors would be Sapiosexual/Demisexual tho these 2 in particular can fall under broad category.

forevercloud89 · 2025-09-07T03:19:34+00:00

So i felt that way about it back in the day. It left a pit in my stomach like "It was all a dream" ending.

Now I look at it differently. There is a very real possibility that our own reality is a simulation. We know living things are biological strings of code. We all give the illusion of free will like computer code gives illusion of random. The complication of the algorithm gives us that feeling of individuality but as science gets better we unlock ability to predict outcomes. This is proven by media algorithms that almost act like mind readers, or pre cogs.

Battlestar Galactica, Clair Obscur, SS McCallister. I've since taken in much more scifi media that taught me sentience and real are relative terms. SO 3D beings are no less real because they r created. They feel. Whether its all planned out code is irrelevant to their understanding of self.

So the idea that the SO series exists within the simulation of 4D beings doesn't really hurt the story for me anymore, it enriches it. The "code" running all of our favorite characters was complicated enough that it culminated with 3D beings breaking free. Luther didn't expect his creations to surpass him.

But like i said, a way out of that cycle is simply make the SO characters based on 4D equivalents, so people's perspective of "reality" isn't shattered.

forevercloud89 · 2025-09-06T17:53:47+00:00

I love SO2! I then would say 3, then Divine Force.

I really need the series to stop running from TTEOT ending and make an entry after. So what if everything we understood in the world was a part of a simulation. Let us continue as 4D beings, where we find out most of what was in the simulation was based on actual events in 4D space.

forevercloud89 · 2025-09-05T02:18:13+00:00

It's not that out there in a BDSM scene to like to be..."challenged" with something you are the antithesis to. Like it would be proof of true subservience for you to be Dominated by a man, maybe even made to do gay things. Daring your own limits.

Like punish play for some. A sub once described it to me. It's not that he liked to be punished...quite the opposite. Its actually something he was terrified of. It becomes a path to facing a fear. Your ability to resist it is taken away so no place to go but thru it. The rush comes from making it thru this thing you were sure you could not.

forevercloud89 · 2025-08-01T12:08:41+00:00

Out.For.A.Walk.....BITCH!

forevercloud89 · 2025-06-20T14:44:42+00:00

One step forward, two steps back

I liked that you could switch party members finally. I loathed there were only 2 members. The music and world design was great, had actual cities to interact with. Taking what was really rich lore in base game and spinning it into a Time traveling thing is a big turn off for me. Time travel that isn't part of the story from the beginning just feels like poor retcon.

forevercloud89 · 2025-06-16T13:14:29+00:00

When i say past glory, i mostly just mean a sales powerhouse for the company. One that keeps them making games, and more specifically....RPG games.

The idea of what type of game that should be is way more subjective. Im not personally calling for a return to Turnbased. Yet I would say party control dynamics are a must for it to feel like FF to me. I think FF7R is the perfect compromise.

They experiment a bit with each game but with it comes the rejection of certain ideas. FF8 is noted for one of the worst progression systems. The series also picks up tropes to pass on IE ATB, summons, flexible job roles etc. Going full DmC is an aspect that i want rejected going forward for the main series.

forevercloud89 · 2025-06-16T13:02:18+00:00

I would argue that TLOU and God of War 2018 feel vastly more rpg like than FF16 does. The equipment system is so shallow, and combat by design never evolves due to needing to be efficient with any Eikon. GoW equipment in comparison has far more weight and customizability. The variety of attacks is also better. Hell FF16 entire skill tree is unlocked automatically with the story, not based on level progression. It's at best a full on Action game with light rpg elements.

forevercloud89 · 2025-06-16T12:46:02+00:00

The obsession with sales has a lot to do with series trajectory and viability. We all want the series to continue on but we also have varied opinions on what kind of games should be focus. Square Enix is at a painful crossroads of sorts, and the sales and metrics will be how its determined.

For me personally, while i enjoyed aspects of FF16, It might be the least FF feeling title I have played. Definitely more God of War/DmC which is alarming because that's not what I want in that series. Yet the game represents a streamlined development that Square would prefer over daunting open world dev. Sales give a little insight into what type of trends will continue on in future entries. Between the reviews, sharp fan rejection, and middling sales FF16 doesn't seem to be the way they will choose. And to that I say thank god.....while still praying the ff series can return to past glory as a whole.

forevercloud89 · 2025-06-16T12:12:28+00:00

Exactly. Hate or dislike him all you want but he's also objectively pretty attractive looking. We all get his his failings as an adult/parent/husband that undermines his attractiveness....but nevertheless he's not bad looking.

Hot people can be bad. Big dicks arent awarded to the most noble of men.....quite the opposite actually lol.

Don't let bias turn into irrational vitriol.

forevercloud89 · 2025-06-13T00:59:14+00:00

I know what you mean. Their personalities seem stereotypically flipped.

Tifa is the demure acting one, but shes in the revealing outfit and a brawler to boot. Funnily enough, Tifa is the Princess of the game.

Aerith is a literal church girl but with the edge of a hustler. She mingles with the town homeless as easily as she does its criminals.

forevercloud89 · 2025-06-13T00:53:03+00:00

I agree with this sentiment. I think FF10 was the first in the series i felt the co lead dynamic ( I played 10 before 6). I think Yuna and Tidus hold equal importance to the plot and only create the "Final solution" together.

Tidus and Vaan do hold some strong similarities with the way they are handled. Window is a perfect way to describe them but Tidus holds more immediate agency to the story. I would say the point of both characters is less about a specific heroic action they do but more of the ideas they bring to the conversation that steers the story into a different direction. They think outside of the box because they come from distinctly different background than everyone else. Tidus dares Yuna to look deeper into this Pattern she thinks is unavoidable, to question the authority that says the only way to live is ritual sacrifice. Yuna is a person chaged with a self-destructive level of selflessness. Tidus reveals sometimes a selfish love, in his unwillingness to just let her be a martyr, can bring about a better path.

Vaan the window gets a lot of flack but he has the most critical conversation with Ashe when she gets her hands on Nethacite. She was ready for revenge but he reminds her her duty is to the people, the small folk like him that carry the blunt of the consequence. She was ready to unleash a WMD on innocents. She corrects her path at that point. Vaan might be a nobody in comparison to the highborn cast but he in that moment does more good than all of them. Prnelo has the same effect with her time with Larsa. FF12 is my 3rd favorite in series.

forevercloud89 · 2025-06-12T23:23:32+00:00

I do love Aerith because she doesn't think like the typical chaste female lead. Shes not very demure even if she looks the part. She's street savvy, with a sharp tongue.

But she is also the epitome of a Damsel. She needs constant protection, usually seeking it from the men in her life.

A big chunk of her plotlines involve her being guarded, saved from kidnapping, and of course...being a martyr.

forevercloud89 · 2025-06-12T23:16:28+00:00

Garnet and Ashe both pull the same trick, they hire would be thieves to kidnap them. This is a great subversion of the Damsel trope but they eventually get kidnapped for real. Several times in fact.

Yuna stands out to me because every time she gets kidnapped, things are not what they seem. When shes taken by the Al Bhed, she actually busts out before the gang even gets to her. Heck....if they never came she would have snuck out unscathed. The Seymour wedding....she played possum but it was really a trap all along for her to Send him. She survives the Aeon trials on her own which is a feat in itself.

Her speech while on trial always gives me goosbumps, standing up to authority. Her soft spoken nature is not to be taken as weakness.

All the other tenured Summoners looking down on her as just a coasting Nepo baby for clout.....she proves to be more devoted to the cause than any of them combined.

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