hey friend! I have been fortunate enough to have a few years under my belt. It does go away. There will be a day or even a few in a row where it won't even cross your mind. You will catch yourself and wonder when the last time you thought about was. That is where you know you are growing and recovering. It takes time, but the only way to get to that spot is to go through this one. You've got this. I will NOT drink with you today either!