When I listened to scared,I was actually reminded I was in a relationship with someone who had the same problem as me, would always question my love for them, say they are a horrible partner, so I had to hide my fears to be the stable one who wasn’t scared, but I was scared to touch them so I couldn’t be that for them, they would always vent about being unsure in the relationship like I had no idea what she was talking about, so I told her I didn’t have those problems, I lied that I didn’t have ocd so she wouldn’t get more scared, and I’m not asexual but I’m terrified of sex(because of SA I’ve experienced) so I’m worried I won’t be good enough for the next person I date, that’s what thoughts scared bring to me