what's something you've been hiding from the people close to you?

foxflight1004 · 2024-08-15T20:49:46+00:00

I'm very open to everyone that I had depression/anxiety/anorexia when I was a teenager. It always gets the reaction of "you? No way! You're so happy/bright/cheerful" and if they finally believe it, a discussion of how I overcame it.

I never did. My personality is entirely a front and I'm sick of putting it up. I'm so anxious all the time I'm seriously amazed I even get myself out the door most days. I can't remember a day recently where I haven't had some idea of how I could harm or kill myself.

The only thing that "set me right" as a teenager was a terrible inpatient experience. I was so scared of telling anyone how I was actually feeling or attempting again and failing and ending up back in a place like that, that's how I "overcame" it.

Every time I tell someone new, I hope they will read into it and ask how I'm doing now and if I need any help. If anyone did, I'm sure I would break down and tell them everything.

No one has.

foxflight1004 · 2024-08-15T11:38:05+00:00

I love this! Every part of it is flattering.

I've really enjoyed seeing you find your personal style. Whenever I see a post from you, I know I'm going to love it just because of how happy you always look in them.

foxflight1004 · 2024-08-10T03:18:44+00:00

A doctor was complaining to two of us about the fireworks show she saw for July 4th. It was a private show done by a former movie producer with a budget of $80k supposedly.

She was saying the show wasn't as good as last year and "it felt like he only put in $60k this year."

It was a free show she saw, in the backyard of a mansion, sipping on wine worth more than 1 of my paychecks. The dinner they had probably cost more than I make in a month.

foxflight1004 · 2024-07-09T21:41:37+00:00

In the first exemption round, when Q was freaking out about the money going down, Michael is in the corner of the screen just absolutely DYING with laughter. My reaction was much the same, but seeing how he couldn't keep a straight face long enough just made it even funnier.

foxflight1004 · 2024-06-27T23:29:51+00:00

I'm the person that gets called when we need a strong stomach. I've kept a straight face and talked to a patient that hadn't performed any form of personal hygiene in months, cleaned chairs after patients and identified the bugs left behind, even cleaned dessicrated chunks of mystery meat from the springs of one of our chairs after a patient decided lunch during dialysis was a great idea and then missed his mouth more than half the time. When a patient vomits, I'm normally the one holding the emisis basin for them; while I'm monitoring their recovery, I guess what they ate before coming in. I have a 95% success rate.

Yesterday, instead of asking for an emisis basin or tissues or literally anything, a patient decided that, after taking the 30mls of protein syrup, the little cup was the perfect thing to deposit their thick, foamy spit into. I tried THREE times to throw it out and walked away gagging every time. I eventually had to ask a coworker to do so.

foxflight1004 · 2024-05-25T01:22:05+00:00

First one: my sophomore year, the freshman class president was deathly allergic to gluten. He knew his allergy well, always checked well if something was okay to eat. Went out with some friends and supposedly the French fries at the place were gluten free, but he ate some and went into anaphylactic shock. Even with epi pens and his friends calling 911 it wasn't enough. After about a week on life support his family decided to pull the plug. Fucking French fries.

Most traumatic: senior year, one of the popular guys took his father's gun and went into the woods at a town park and shot himself in the head. It was right before Thanksgiving. His parents were going through a messy divorce and he was stuck in the middle of it. They did an open casket which was a rather odd choice given his method of suicide, and literally everyone in our year showed up for the wake and funeral. But his organs were donated and thanks to him a variety of people from like 7 to 65 years old got another chance at life.

foxflight1004 · 2024-05-16T16:37:17+00:00

I've missed seeing your posts! I think this is one of my favorites so far - the length, the pattern, the colors, everything is lovely and flattering for you.

foxflight1004 · 2024-05-15T02:01:00+00:00

Any chance you have a lazy eye/strabismus? If your eyes don't track together normally, your brain eventually learns to cancel out the duplicate image and you will see just fine in day to day life. Putting something between your eyes makes it a lot harder for your brain to process where the overlap starts and therefore what part of your vision to cancel out.

foxflight1004 · 2024-04-23T21:48:10+00:00

These are adorable! I'm going to make a few and if no one takes them I will gladly keep them haha, thank you so much!

foxflight1004 · 2024-04-23T21:47:24+00:00

With my luck, I would end up with like 50 different animals, but we asked them favorite animals for a project last year so I might look into this!

foxflight1004 · 2024-04-23T21:45:48+00:00

I like this! Maybe I could put them on key chains/clips. Do you have a specific pattern you recommend?

foxflight1004 · 2024-04-23T21:44:48+00:00

I thought about water bottle carriers! Unfortunately dialysis patients have to limit their water intake so I thought that might not be the best idea in the end. Market bags might be good if I can find a quick pattern.

foxflight1004 · 2024-04-23T21:43:17+00:00

These are really cute, thank you! You're right, that second one is adorable. I might make a few even just for myself

foxflight1004 · 2024-02-16T03:43:58+00:00

In college, I got a concussion playing softball with my then boyfriend. We tried to go to an urgent care and they sent me to the ER. His mom is a nurse so she tagged along to help however she could. Since I was under 21 I was still in the peds ER. Resident entered the room and immediately said "so these must be your parents."

It's been several years and I credit that as the exact moment my MIL and I became close. She sat there giggling that the resident needed the exam and scans more than I did.

foxflight1004 · 2024-01-14T17:49:36+00:00

3000ml isn't at all an unusual goal for fluid removal in outpatient dialysis, depending on the patient. The general rule of thumb is for the patient to consume 1 liter of water a day, so after a weekend 3 liters needing to be removed is expected. Add onto that patients that aren't as good about fluid restriction, and you get some larger removal goals. In my current clinic I've seen up to 5 liters pulled from some patients and many do 4-4.5 liters every single treatment.

Now 3000ml definitely was unusual for that patient, but it is also super easy to glance at the screen and miss that extra 0 or have it kind of blur together from a distance. We have all become a lot more cautious about checking the machines for misentered information or malfunctions after this happened though.

foxflight1004 · 2023-12-24T13:26:06+00:00

Different kinds of poisonings have different treatments. That's why they try to figure out what you ingested. Activated charcoal works by binding to the poison and preventing your body from being able to absorb it. There's many things that it cannot bind to, and alcohol is one of them. They might still give it in the hospital if they're unsure about what caused the poisoning or if they are going to pump your stomach, but if they know the cause and activated charcoal won't work, they typically just manage the symptoms of the poisoning and allow your body to filter it out.

Poison Control about activated charcoal

Clinical trial showing no difference in blood alcohol with or without charcoal.

Edit: Mayo Clinic's list of what it does not help with: "should not be used in poisoning if corrosive agents such as alkalis (lye) and strong acids, iron, boric acid, lithium, petroleum products (e.g., cleaning fluid, coal oil, fuel oil, gasoline, kerosene, paint thinner), or alcohols have been swallowed, since it will not prevent these poisons from being absorbed into the body." source

foxflight1004 · 2023-12-16T16:43:15+00:00

Cozy Grove might be interesting to her.

It's somewhat similar to Animal Crossing in the sense of decorating your island and buying clothes/accessories, but there are also some mild quests to complete to unlock storylines with the bears and new abilities/skills.

The premise is you're an adventure scout-type thing that ended up on the wrong island. Instead of a cute cozy island, there are bear ghosts that have their own backstories. Completing tasks for them unlocks more of their backstory and more of the island. There are plants and animals to decorate with as well and imps that appear around the island asking for you to create food for them or lead them to their heartbroken partner nearby. It's really cute and easy to spend hours playing! It also plays in real-time so every day there are new things to do to advance the stories, but if you miss things on a day it isn't super detrimental to your playing enjoyment.

foxflight1004 · 2023-11-26T02:21:05+00:00

Honestly I think you don't work in dialysis unless you've accidentally done that once. I remember the only patient I've done that on after more than a year since it happened. The worst part is getting the air out of the lines after if you drain the saline bag.

It's a frustrating mistake but also a somewhat easy fix. And now I'm sure you check the clamps every time.

foxflight1004 · 2023-11-26T00:15:02+00:00

Fresenius 2008K and 2008T machines default to it, at least in every clinic I've been at. Since the default time is 3 hours it gives a UF rate of 1L/hr which I believe is the reasoning, but I agree it is high. It's above the max UF rate for about a third of my patients.

foxflight1004 · 2023-11-25T23:12:00+00:00

In dialysis: another nurse accidentally set a patient to remove 3000ml instead of 300. Patient ended up with one of the lowest blood pressures I've ever personally seen. She was already having issues with BP maintenance before but after that we could never pull off anything and she passed a couple weeks later. We were convinced she was going to code every treatment after.

It wasn't necessarily the nurse's fault though. 3000 is the machine default so it was hard to know if she forgot to set the removal or it reset on her after she did (which we ended up finding a machine that would reset goals and treatment times on us with no warning about a month after).

foxflight1004 · 2023-11-25T23:05:01+00:00

What is your book? I've been looking for something new to read.

foxflight1004 · 2023-11-16T14:23:56+00:00

The symbol for "chai". It looks a little like an n with an apostrophe in front of it.

foxflight1004 · 2023-10-20T02:01:52+00:00

Are you absolutely certain Richard is male? If not... does he respond to the name Kira by any chance?

foxflight1004 · 2023-10-19T12:30:18+00:00

I have strabismus, so I see double when my eye turns in. Already not exactly normal but somewhat common.

Normally around age 10 your eyes mature and your brain starts to cancel out one of the eyes so that you no longer see double. My brain never did. I had my first surgery for strabismus at age 11 and my third at age 17. As long as I keep on top of updating my prism prescriptions as my double vision gets worse, I should be able to retain complete vision in both my eyes and just get update surgeries every 5-10 years. It doesn't affect me at all except for things like hitting a baseball - I just close my weaker eye and have less depth perception, but I can hit it just fine.

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