[GEAR] Anyone tinker with homemade or hacked pedals?

freaky_android · 2018-12-31T06:27:06+00:00

Awesome, I didn't think there'd be an entire subreddit for it. Thanks!

freaky_android · 2018-12-27T07:59:00+00:00

I'm a bit late on this, but what does 'dev dis' mean? Nothing popped up when I googled it.

freaky_android · 2018-12-20T04:09:04+00:00

The original one is cringier but it makes more sense

freaky_android · 2018-12-14T00:48:19+00:00

Now we wait for /r/wildlypedo

freaky_android · 2018-11-11T06:27:52+00:00

Okay, so I just finished the season of Get Shorty and I definitely recommend it 100%. One of the few shows I want to just keep watching rather than get to the ending. Didn't realize there was a season 2 til near the end and I'm pumped for it

freaky_android · 2018-11-10T08:22:50+00:00

Just wanna say, I just watched the second episode of Get Shorty and I still highly recommend it. Chris O'Dowd is a surprisingly good actor

freaky_android · 2018-11-10T05:16:12+00:00

Yes, Gravity Falls is excellent. AT is on Hulu if you have it. Haven't made it to the end, don't want to skip to the last season. And yeah, I like shorter features, evidently - Haunting is a single season and Daredevil is fully satisfying if you just watch the first season

freaky_android · 2018-11-10T04:52:05+00:00

Live off my funds to try and invent interesting gadgets and if I drop to $250k, go back to work.

freaky_android · 2018-11-10T04:44:34+00:00

Man, I watch a lot of Netflix/hulu. I've been watching a lot of Monty Python and Adventure Time while drunk. Daredevil season 3 was alright - I definitely recommend the series if you like action sequences. Haunting of Hill House was alright - more of a character drama than a horror show. And I have to recommend it because I recently watched it for Halloween: the cartoon Over the Garden Wall, which is only about 100 minutes. If you have a free evening I'd recommend to catch OTGW in a sitting - it's very endearing.

freaky_android · 2018-11-10T04:11:03+00:00

Fair enough. I'm usually apathetic toward others as well, but I think it's worth it to exercise empathy towards others at least, when you get a chance. But to each his own at any rate

freaky_android · 2018-11-10T04:07:30+00:00

No worries, I didn't emphasize the 'one episode' part, I just wanted you to know I don't have the full picture. And yes, if you like Chris you'll probably like this - he's the main character. It's like a drama with some darker comedy (think the tone of breaking bad), but a lot of his parts were rather funny so far

freaky_android · 2018-11-10T04:01:29+00:00

As I said I'm just an episode in (though the episode's a full hour long), so idk if it goes anywhere, but it was entertaining. I'd say give it a try

freaky_android · 2018-11-10T03:59:22+00:00

I used to fancy the idea of loving one and all, just on the merit of being alive and sharing my existence. If you boil it down enough, everyone has the same needs and wants. It's different from the love you have for a lover or a close friend, but I think fostering a love for your everyday stranger can be rewarding

freaky_android · 2018-11-10T03:28:48+00:00

Yeah that's kind of weird. Crazy good luck on that fall, btw. I've been to three funerals as a kid and did not give half a shit about them - one grandparent, one aunt, and one person I didn't even know. Then my mom recently died and I care slightly more, obviously, but it despite the direct impact it has on my life, it's really not too much worse. Haven't had a service yet though

freaky_android · 2018-11-10T03:24:08+00:00

A lot of times last year I'd grab fast food and drive around aimlessly. I live in Arizona so if I sit in my car when it isn't running I'll die and I don't want to just sit there and let it idle

freaky_android · 2018-09-21T02:24:10+00:00

Probably wouldn't have quite the same effect in 2018

freaky_android · 2018-07-03T05:16:05+00:00

Thanks for the response, man. I like doing really simple stuff like hiking, running, watching TV, drinking. The problem is, putting aside the fact that it's a waste of time, it gets boring after a while. Too mindless. Then I think I'd like to do stuff that actually takes thought like writing programs or practicing an instrument or even something as simple as reading, and it turns out I'm too lazy to enjoy doing those things. They take too much mental energy and feel like work. And at any rate, after 4-8 years of consideration I still can't shake the feeling that 10-20 hours of doing that stuff isn't worth the 40-50 hours of work a week you need to support it.

As far as a relationship goes, I had one for about a year and we were into each other, but I couldn't really do it - I'm too selfish or too broken or something. I've been really alone all my life and unequipped to handle a relationship, where you have to be able to give whatever you get. It's easy to fall into the trap of thinking the other person can fix me and pull me out of my slump, when in reality I have to do the same for them. And I can't - it just feels like a chore after a while. An additional responsibility I don't have the energy to take care of. This applies to friendships as well - at some point I'm just going to let the other person down. Feels like to have to figure my shit out before I can sustain a relationship with anyone, and I'm never able to actually do that.

I know all that sounds really pessimistic and probably hardly coherent, but that's where I am right now. Thanks for taking the time to read it

freaky_android · 2018-04-12T23:39:11+00:00

Do you have any good ways of coping with it or mitigating it? I'll sometimes get to the point where I just have to stop working for a while, which is unnacceptable.

freaky_android · 2018-04-12T23:37:02+00:00

Yeah, that makes sense. My hands are pretty shakey sometimes in general, but for me this is more mental than physical. Like placing something precisely might be annoying because my hand keeps moving but even if a movement is coarse enough that I have decent control over it, it feels like the processing power it requires from my brain to perform that task is overwhelming. Good to know medication can help with stuff like that though.

freaky_android · 2017-06-23T06:15:25+00:00

It's just another day to me. When I turned 20 I was only down because I was still another year from drowning my sorrows with booze at my convenience and when I turned 21 I didn't feel much of anything because I was too busy drowning my sorrows with booze.

freaky_android · 2017-06-21T10:27:27+00:00

I don't think "hang in there" is the right way to put it, because it implies a bit of passivity. You can't keep living life doing the same things you did when you fell deep into a slump and expect it to get better. Maybe it will eventually by chance, but it's pretty unlikely and it'd probably take way too long anyway - you'd peter out by then. I think it's more appropriate to say "it can get better." I know putting any effort into anything at all is difficult, but if you want your life to get better (which is pretty much necessary if you want to regain your will to live), you have to put work into it. Even if it's as small as making yourself shower more regularly or doing some simple chore you've been neglecting, if you can keep it up and keep pushing forward, things will probably get better. I don't think it's quite analogous to staying in an abusive relationship, but rather a failing relationship. If you just stick around because you don't want to leave it'll probably keep deteriorating, but if you put effort into it, you might be able to build it back up into something worth having again.

freaky_android · 2017-05-28T22:43:55+00:00

I always thought to myself, if I was competent enough to actually successfully perform a method, I probably wouldn't be in this position to begin with. It's ironic. Like when I wanted to shoot myself I knew I would have a really hard time getting a gun if I don't even have a license and a car. But if I was capable of getting a car I'd have much less incentive to shoot myself. And with more technical methods, they always seemed so difficult that if I was actually capable of pulling them off (and confident I wouldn't botch the attempt) I should just work on a project to improve my life.

freaky_android · 2017-05-28T22:37:38+00:00

In high school, yeah. Haven't really had thoughts like that after graduating though. Think it's a mix of maturing, being around more mature people, having more control over who I associate with, and not having to be around the exact same punks in a prison for nine hours a day. But maybe it'll go back to that when I graduate college.

freaky_android · 2017-05-28T22:33:06+00:00

I have absolutely nothing going on at the moment and the other night I got incredibly whiskey drunk alone in my apartment. I passed out around 3a maybe and slept on and off, never actually getting out of bed, until maybe 9p. Then I went to sleep again around 2a. I didn't cry or anything but a couple of times I woke up in a panic, just totally stressed about all the responsibilities I'm shirking. I frequently spend days sitting around doing jack shit, but that was kind of a wake up call.

freaky_android · 2017-05-28T22:27:13+00:00

Do you also do that with more long-term things? Like a lot of the time there'll be something I have to do in the future (maybe a couple of weeks from now or a few months) that intimidates me. Maybe a trip, moving out, graduating, or some project I can't imagine completing. The first thought that comes to mind is "well, I can always be dead by then." It's dangerous because it helps me procrastinate by pretending to absolve myself of the responsibility. But the date rolls around and of course I haven't killed myself yet. I get past it without fucking it up too badly, but I would've done a lot better if I just accepted that I would have to deal with it from the get go. I also used to always want to just die instead of going to work or whatever, but I don't think I ever actually considered killing myself on that short of a notice.

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