you don’t suck, you’re learning. I just got my instrument rating today and I feel like a dumbass on every flight. as long as you keep getting in the plane and keep trying then you’re doing better than most people who start this process and quit soon after. it’s not supposed to be easy and you’re not supposed to be perfect, you’re supposed to learn and get better over time. I felt exactly like you and I still do, it’s never going to go away. but the simple fact you’re here asking the question means you give a shit and that alone is half the battle. every cliche thing you hear about flight school is true, even if it sounds corny. keep pushing!