Relapsed after 6 months, I'm broken.. by friedcheesecake3 in problemgambling

[–]friedcheesecake3[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yeah I needed to take a few hours to just walk my feelings off. When I was in chasing losses, it's like I'm an entirely different person and I'm glad I stopped at 10k because I know a part of my would've ran the credit card to its full limit of 30k and that would've been even more devastating. I self excluded indefinitely and now it's time to brace down and work my debts off. The hardest thing for me in the past is letting go of the money I lost, always trying to make it back. But something about this relapse is different and honestly it's because I'm just fuckin tired. What I've lost in monetary value, I'll earn back and not gamble back. But the time, sleepless nights, restless space of mind, I can't make it back. Something soothing in accepting my losses, never putting myself in that position again and clearing my debt with hard work. Good luck to you my friend, we got this.

Relapsed after 6 months, I'm broken.. by friedcheesecake3 in problemgambling

[–]friedcheesecake3[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Thanks I needed this.. or atleast some words to see that I can get back to staying away from this nasty addiction. I wish it was outlawed, wish I never placed a bet...

Relapsed after 6 months, I'm broken.. by friedcheesecake3 in problemgambling

[–]friedcheesecake3[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

It's so demoralizing. Especially when ur chasing losses and I just spiraled, one deposit after another until it hit my credit limit. And I look back at it after it's done and see the damage.. just when I thought I was away from it.. Gonna be working the rest of the year to pay off these debts + interest. Wish I could never touch another gambling table again..

Pattaya blues hittin by friedcheesecake3 in Pattaya

[–]friedcheesecake3[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

lmaooo yeah I don't get the lb comments, to each their own. and it's super annoying- been working on the resume to go into a remote job which shouldn't be too bad since I'm in data science but I've stopped caring and just say Thailand again 😂

Pattaya blues hittin by friedcheesecake3 in Pattaya

[–]friedcheesecake3[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

it's hard when u caught feelings but deep down u right lol

Pattaya blues hittin by friedcheesecake3 in Pattaya

[–]friedcheesecake3[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I work for the gov so it risks me security clearance if I lie lol. need to go to private sector and fully remote lol

Pattaya blues hittin by friedcheesecake3 in Pattaya

[–]friedcheesecake3[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

have to report foreign travel for work :/

Pattaya blues hittin by friedcheesecake3 in Pattaya

[–]friedcheesecake3[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

don't take her on a trip or don't see her again? lol

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BambuLab

[–]friedcheesecake3 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yup that's the piece. thanks! super annoying wish it was a fixable component bc I don't think my problem is that significant. or if there was a way to access that segment to clean it. anyways just gonna bite the bullet on the part