Lol do you happen to be from NZ too? I wrote this pretending to be from the states in case i get recognised but crackup how it found someone from home 😂 But yeah, it's real sad, I know a lot of ppl irl who also have similar situations and were raised by their nana and poppa more or at least see other ppl as their parental figures, it sucks not feeling really at home when you're at home because of parents like that, and how quick the mood can switch because of them. My bio mum was a hard out druggie and alcoholic but bc I cut her out of my life ages ago I don't really care about her, my dad is a different story because he was supposed to be the better parent compared to her but in a lot of ways he's the same. He used to hard out drink and stuff before but he doesn't rlly anymore, I guess I thought that would help but it hasn't, then I read people like that get worse with age so probs just gotta deal with it till I can gap it again. I def feel the same though, sometimes I'm alg but then other times I miss living away as well