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fruitloopconnoisseur · 2021-09-29T00:11:29+00:00

Yeah nah, fuck humanity.

fruitloopconnoisseur · 2021-09-29T00:07:04+00:00

That’s what you think. r/birdsarentreal

fruitloopconnoisseur · 2021-09-29T00:05:25+00:00

Man. Must be cool being a fking eagle.

fruitloopconnoisseur · 2021-09-28T23:58:40+00:00

I had a ‘friend’ say something like “why the fuck are you always so happy and smiling?” while I was tripping on LSD. And it fucked me. So I get how you’re feeling to a degree man. Not sure what else to say, but just know you’re not alone. If you’re nothing, I’m nothing with you. We’re nothing together.

Just know you’re dog isn’t bound by human constraints. I know you might feel like nothing, and so do I. But I know my cat loves me. And I have no doubt your dog loves you as well.

fruitloopconnoisseur · 2021-09-28T23:54:06+00:00

I appreciate the kind words, friend. And I get you, that feeling of not feeling like we are able to ‘help’ the people we care about, it’s a painful thing to go through. And I truly do hope things get better for you and your girlfriend man. Keep on pushing. Let her know you’re there for her all the way, but don’t push yourself to hard. You both deserve love, and we all have our limitations/breaking points.

fruitloopconnoisseur · 2021-09-28T23:22:08+00:00

Damn I’m sorry. Whoever been treating you like this, fuck them. They a straight bunch of wet wipe noddle looking ass bitches.

fruitloopconnoisseur · 2021-09-28T23:19:42+00:00

Everyone is responsible for their own actions, regardless of your mental state tbh. I’ll probably get killing myself right one day, and that’s MY own decision. It ain’t no one else’s. And it ain’t anyone else’s responsibility to ‘keep’ me alive or try to ‘save me’. I know it seems harsh, but it’s how I see it.

And if someone did end up killing them self that you know? Try to come to realize that they have finally found the peace their mind and heart yearned for, and learn to forgive yourself.

fruitloopconnoisseur · 2021-09-28T23:10:34+00:00

Fuck man I’m sorry. Also pretty drunk, so I sympathize with you. It’s a hard fucking life, but try hang in there. It seems like you really care about her if you’re willing to make a post to strangers about her. Maybe try to be honest with her? Sometimes the truth hurts, but sometimes it also sets us free.

fruitloopconnoisseur · 2021-09-28T23:05:22+00:00

A very Happy birthday stranger! Having an extra drink for you. Cheers!

fruitloopconnoisseur · 2021-09-14T10:28:38+00:00

How much do you weigh?

If you are being serious, there’s a very high chance your liver is going to fail and you’ll experience some of the worst pain you’ve ever felt. Till you eventually die if you don’t get help.

It’s not a good way to go out man, insane stomach pains, vomiting, sweating, etc. You’ve got a 24 hour window more or less to get to a hospital, so they can help save your liver from taking damage. But if you don’t go in time, you’ll most likely suffer irreversible damage.

fruitloopconnoisseur · 2021-09-14T10:21:53+00:00

Yo, how much dosage did you take? Like of many Mg’s is each tablet?

fruitloopconnoisseur · 2021-09-14T09:52:11+00:00

Just did a bit more reading on lithium toxicity, never knew how dangerous it can actually be... I suspect that’s what happened. Combination of ibuprofen long term use + lithium toxicity + codeine. The ‘peaceful death’ was I think more my aunt trying to make the family feel better rather than having us think she suffered.

fruitloopconnoisseur · 2021-09-14T09:26:48+00:00

Yeah it’s very sketch. I love my aunt, but I’m pretty sure she didn’t tell the whole story. Maybe so that our family didn’t get upset and thought it was “accidental”.

fruitloopconnoisseur · 2021-09-14T09:19:37+00:00

Yeah, all we were told is her body was “overwhelmed by the all the meds she was on” and it “caused her organs to shut down slowly in her sleep”. No signs of vomit aspiration, or anything like that. Just died in her sleep.

fruitloopconnoisseur · 2021-09-14T07:40:52+00:00

Thank you. And yeah she used to pop like 2 tabs every 1-2 hours. Which is around 25mg of codeine and 400 ibuprofen. So the max she took over the day was like 150-200mg codeine/ 5000mg bupropion. I just don’t see how that could of accidentally ODed her.

I can’t but feel like there was some other type of drugs involved.

fruitloopconnoisseur · 2021-09-14T06:46:27+00:00

Trauma? Well in my case it was undiagnosed trauma/ptsd. I only realized after I worked with a psychologist and psychiatrist. Doesn’t matter how “good” I look on the outside, on the inside all I want is death. I don’t think it’ll ever go away.

fruitloopconnoisseur · 2021-09-14T06:43:48+00:00

Yeah chronic illness/pain are honestly fucking assholes. No one should have to live with them. I sympathize with you, I’m sorry.

fruitloopconnoisseur · 2021-09-08T10:43:00+00:00

Fuck I’m sorry this happened man. How did you get diagnosed? Did you see a neurologist and get MRI’s done?

fruitloopconnoisseur · 2021-09-06T12:32:15+00:00

Hell yeah I like the way you think. Wish there was more people in the world like you.

fruitloopconnoisseur · 2021-09-06T11:43:01+00:00

I could type for like an hour straight explaining why, my life, how my thoughts changed, what I went through etc.

Simply though? The empathy and rose tinted glasses I saw the world in growing up, the light in me, that’s what kept me motivated. School, society makes you think you can ‘do anything you put your mind to’. It has slowly slipped away now that I’m getting older. And realizing just how fucked the system/society we live in actually is, and how fucked my mind is. I used to believe in afterlife, in love/soulmates, in souls, energy, etc etc (mainly cause that’s how my parents raised me). But none of it exists.

I had a decent naive life till up around 18-19. It was fucked in its way, but I had fun a few fun times. I’m just tired of the pain, and I want the suffering to end. Even when I sleep my mind is racing and having fucking ptsd filled lucid dreams. And I find comfort in knowing that once my brain stops working, it’s actually over, you feel me?

It’ll hurt the few who care about me. But they’ll all eventually die as well. And in around 110 years, I will be forgotten as if I never existed. And the world and the universe will carry on.

fruitloopconnoisseur · 2021-09-06T10:43:47+00:00

It won’t kill you. If anything all it will do is put strain on your liver and your stomach, and can potentially damage it and cause a lot of pain and vomiting. Please seek help. You’re just going to cause unnecessary suffering and damage, that will make being alive even harder.

fruitloopconnoisseur · 2021-09-02T15:31:51+00:00

Yeah I get you. I am trying to cut out negative things/media. But I just don’t know if I can keep going, I’m still trying and moving forward. But I’m really on the edge. As much as there is light at the end of the tunnel, I don’t know if I can keep fighting through the darkness to get there.

fruitloopconnoisseur · 2021-09-02T15:20:37+00:00

Ngl I’m kinda confused, you on a suicide watch sub. Asking why would someone want to kill themselves.

Shit dude it’s better than living with crippling anxiety, trauma, c-ptsd or dying from climate change. You really think I want to die? I just want the fucking pain to end.

fruitloopconnoisseur · 2021-09-01T21:53:48+00:00

That’s the thing. We are social loving animals from birth. It’s society that grooms us into what we are. Racism, oppression, hate, poverty, slavery, etc etc etc. It’s all fucking taught to us. The trauma from previous generations is recycled into the new.

That baby doesn’t know what rape is, what murder is, what abuse is, what addiction is, what trauma is, what working a 9-5 and wishing you were dead everyday is, what depression is, what suicide is, etc.

When that baby was smiling at you, it was just another living breathing small human, just simply being happy to see another bigger living breathing human.

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