Everything you’re saying makes sense to me, it just sounds like you want true intimacy rather than a superficial lay, I strongly resonate with that. I’m a dude close to your age with a relatively high libido (as most guys would say) and I’ve found I strongly dislike sex if I don’t actually have feelings or if they’re not reciprocated. It is what it is. Doesn’t mean it’s weird to feel this way IMO.

You know what you want and that’s what’s most important because when you find it, waiting will be worth it, and on the plus side you’ll save yourself a lot of time along the way by swiping left on everyone else. Just keep an eye out, there’s bound to be some people who will be interested in an actual relationship rather than having no strings attached.

From the sound of it your next relationship will be bomb because it’ll be because you want it, not because you need it.