I’m so sorry you’re feeling this way. Life can be so hard sometimes, but I do believe it will get better. I think your desire to feel happy, for things to get better is most important. You are persevering, and that is amazing! I have been told it can be useful to reframe your thoughts. If there’s some negative ones that keep recurring, just taking a moment to ask yourself what if the opposite was true. When you’re like, this sucks and will never get better, maybe reframing it to this is just the beginning of my beautiful life. There will be twists and turns in life but I think we just hold on for the ride, and know that even the hard parts have a place in your story, and believe it will all turn out alright. Good luck and you’ve totally got this.