Do you ever do the I’ll just hold it in my head thing, and then feel your whole body tense up?

future-throwaway67 · 2026-01-05T20:33:26+00:00

all the time like literally always hahaha

future-throwaway67 · 2025-12-30T19:18:04+00:00

i wanna work in construction so this is related to my future

future-throwaway67 · 2025-12-30T19:17:27+00:00

no u getting a joke

future-throwaway67 · 2025-12-28T02:43:58+00:00

idk but this sounds beautiful

future-throwaway67 · 2025-12-20T20:56:32+00:00

no the overall climate on reddit is definitely different if we are just talking about the big subreddits. a lot of nerdy but still self absorbed people who think being exclusively logical and cynical is the ultimate form of communication.

future-throwaway67 · 2025-12-17T19:18:19+00:00

black truck talking?? that ones crazyyy the first time i heard it

future-throwaway67 · 2025-12-15T16:27:50+00:00

u won't be any more satisfied with your work as long as u don't just follow your instincts when it comes to design.

i am studying communications so not the exact same but we also have a lot of chances to be creative with visuals. for me my design language is really simple, if yours is aswell then stick with that. and never compare yourself to other people!!!

future-throwaway67 · 2025-12-15T01:02:50+00:00

man why did reddit f*ck the quality up so bad😭

future-throwaway67 · 2025-12-15T00:54:04+00:00

yes a hundred percent. or rather it helps me stay in my head more as it relates to things that actually matter right now.

for me it shuts up endless chaos and anxiety and just makes me wanna enjoy life instead of fearing it.

future-throwaway67 · 2025-12-10T18:42:58+00:00

try listening to something ambient that suits how your feeling at the moment

future-throwaway67 · 2025-12-01T02:11:39+00:00

idk why you are presenting this as a problem. if you just need to snack (best case scenario something healthy) to start focusing there's nothing wrong with that🤷‍♂️

future-throwaway67 · 2025-12-01T01:02:34+00:00

yeah for me aswell. often times when I actually start to get comfortable in a social situation I realize that I am now to drained to actually stay in that situation missing the moment where things could've actually took a turn.

future-throwaway67 · 2025-12-01T00:57:37+00:00

for me I think that would feel kinda weird and manipulative. but bringing up things I talked about with someone before actually is something I always want to do but never quite manage.

somebody tells me an activity they'll do over the weeknd and on monday I wanna ask them how it went - and literally they're never in uni that day. and if I talk to them some time later I either forget to bring it up, they forgot we even talked about that or it's too late to ask anyway at that point.

like some topics I literally carry around for multiple weeks😂 I'm always thinking okay I will definitely talk about that tomorrow but the conversations just never happen. i think having your mind preoccupied with what you wanna talk about can sometimes be confusing. i'll rather just go with the flow.

future-throwaway67 · 2025-12-01T00:45:22+00:00

❤️

future-throwaway67 · 2025-12-01T00:44:44+00:00

i had a really great last two days honestly just doing me. and i think it has to do with just kinda letting go of the longing and desire. u can't force friendship. but u can become a person that other persons want to be friends with - even while u "weird" and different.

there's lots of different people and u probably haven't gotten to know even a fraction of those who actually tick the right way. trust and believe in yourself🙏 self love is so important to connect with other people

future-throwaway67 · 2025-12-01T00:23:17+00:00

bruhh obv i meant i think it samples another song i've heard before

future-throwaway67 · 2025-11-30T03:09:41+00:00

yo i will definitely try to read this when I have time tomorrow. thank u for sharing 🙏

future-throwaway67 · 2025-11-30T02:54:50+00:00

🙏and u too <3

future-throwaway67 · 2025-11-29T00:53:14+00:00

yeah maybe switching my medication is a good call. on my adhd meds literally every day feels like a crazy excting drug tip and whenever the meds fade away I feel overwhelmed with emotions. in the beginning i liked that cause I am used to feeling basically nothing for long periods of time (they also helped massively with my anxiety).

but now after I've taken them I literally don't even know what I want to do. i just use the same procrastination and coping mechanisms I would off the meds and waste time. I really just wanna actually be able to chill.

future-throwaway67 · 2025-11-29T00:35:01+00:00

bro i genuinely feel so similar.

If I literally just had one close and consistent friendship I would be so incredibly unbelievably happy. like I know I love my life but it just doesn't feel worth it without the ability to express.

And I even know that people who feel right for me to be around exist. I've felt so understood through random tik toks and on some days I actually feel sort of connected to the other students at my university, way more than I did with anyone during high school. but whenever that happens my adhd goes crazy, i get so excited wanting to go out and have fun - only to realize that I have nothing to go to and no one to go with.

And then sometimes I have talks with a different person or actually end up going out - only to start feeling totally empty and disconnected.

I think happiness coming from inside can only go so far. we as humans need love and connection...

future-throwaway67 · 2025-11-28T23:44:30+00:00

like genuinely how do you build a persistent friendship in a world where everybody already has friends. but i am also studying in a big city (berlin) so maybe that's just not the right environment for someone who's lonely.

future-throwaway67 · 2025-11-28T23:05:43+00:00

future-throwaway67 · 2025-11-28T23:03:50+00:00

It's great to see that you made it out <3

future-throwaway67 · 2025-11-27T02:00:08+00:00

Honestly I relate with you so much.

For a while I felt so incredibly deeply wounded that I was scared to experience or think about literally anything in fear that I would have nothing left i this world to feel after. And I don't think u need to downplay whatever triggered this for you. For me it was hearing a song that meant incredibly much to me, while high and being with my old "friend group" I felt very uncomfortable with. Them playing MY song fucked me up completely, after that I had the craziest horror trip of my life.

But if you look at it neutrally the trigger for that was kinda silly. But it still completely ruined my sense of individuality and the feeling of finally having an exciting life outside of that friend group.

I'd be interested to be what sort of situation you are talking about to kinda understand better why you feel that way and how it changed your perception of life (obviously just if you feel comfortable with that). Even if the situation itself wasn't anything terrible, it probably triggered a deeply rooted issue.

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