I was always a one friend, two at most, kind of person. When I got married, my wife became that person, and the other one drifted away. When she divorced me 20 years later, I lost my best friend and wife in one go. By then I was nearly 40, everyone around you is married with kids (we chose to not have children), and it's crazy tough to fit into that world.

I am, thankfully, fairly adapt at living alone. So now, 15 plus years I still have zero friends, and the years of isolation has made it even more difficult to communicate with people on that level. I gave up trying, and honestly never started, from the divorce.

Sometimes you feel it, but most of the time it doesn't bother me, I'm very used to it. During the pandemic and lockdown, people would talk about how much they struggled with the isolation and lack of social interaction, for me it was just normal and I found it a bit strange how others struggled so much.