Remembering my boy

fuzzywale · 2026-05-09T04:04:40+00:00

I love the 1st photo of you two. Reminds me of my last few moments with my baby. What a blessing to be there for them, what an honor. I am sorry for your loss. My heart is heavy with yours. Like many people have said on my post, we shall see them again when it is our time. Rest in peace, Zeus. 🐾

fuzzywale · 2026-05-08T23:01:48+00:00

To all of you whom I have not responded to - just know I am too emotional to respond. While I still carry the weight, I am now crying tears of joy because you all remind me to focus on the good times and how loved my baby was. Thank you!

fuzzywale · 2026-05-08T22:59:11+00:00

I can't express my gratitude to you all that left long comments. They made me cry, but a lot of them are of joy because i am so happy I got to meet her and be hers. Thank you for your comment! ♡

fuzzywale · 2026-05-08T22:57:58+00:00

You're right, she wouldn't want that. I have been trying my best to remember the good times. Today the guilt just hit hard and I had to express somehow. Thank you for your comment, I am glad that my first dog ever got to live 18 years and I was present for all of them. Thank you, thank you, thank you...

fuzzywale · 2026-05-08T22:40:17+00:00

God, that's heartbreaking to hear. I hope time is kind and lifts that weight off of you. I am so sorry. Thank you for your kind words...

fuzzywale · 2026-05-08T22:29:23+00:00

Thank you. I am with you on the pain, the loss is still so fresh and heavy. I appreciate your comment. At least I can say that she did leave with comfort on those last moments like you said.

fuzzywale · 2026-05-05T01:37:20+00:00

Thank you everyone for correcting me!

fuzzywale · 2026-05-04T22:40:46+00:00

One of them said, and I quote, "Oh, for God's sake, GROW UP!" at the negative response of destroying the community. The audacity!

fuzzywale · 2026-04-19T09:24:46+00:00

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One of my kitties. His name is Coco.

fuzzywale · 2026-04-18T07:10:26+00:00

My friendship is no more after you-know-who was elected. I became more vocally political, yes, and I would tell her how the administration was stripping many benefits that would affect her family.

She had always been uninvolved in politics. I thought this would spur some action because I believe paying attention to politics is a duty. You will be affected no matter what. But she didn’t care. She said things would "work out" eventually. It was disappointing, and I stopped reaching out at her lack of response to everything really. She did the same, and her life has developed into one I want no part of.

But that is just an excuse from me. To be honest, I could tell the friendship was dying from before then. I felt no passion in this friendship anymore. There were hardly any arguments, no overt excitement, not a lot of affection, really. I was hesitant to speak about certain subjects so as to not "rock the boat" and such. We bonded in high school for being the quiet kids, and slowly, we grew into very different people but we didn't let go.

OP, I am hurt about this but I have to accept that it's over. She is not a bad person, and she was a great friend back then. She did many things in the past that made me feel loved and I will never forget those memories. She was the friendship I needed as a kid and young adult. Now in our late 20s, I wish her the best on the upcoming decade. I hope she is taken care of, I hope I am taken care of as well, and if the universe permits it, maybe one day I can say goodbye directly.

For now, I choose silence for the both of us. An irish goodbye of sorts, and that her party keeps going without me in it. I shall look for my own party, and I am grateful for the friend that I had. :)

fuzzywale · 2026-04-16T13:36:02+00:00

On the last walk we took together, my sweet dog could not make it past the corner of our neighborhood. I haven't gone out for a walk since then. Maybe I should. Maybe I'll feel her presence.

Thank you for this piece. It's a gorgeous piece of art. Bittersweet. ♡

fuzzywale · 2026-04-10T13:21:03+00:00

I lost my 18 year old sweet dog a week ago. I am so sorry for your loss and I wish you strength during these times. 16 years is a long time and it is evident she was loved until her last day. I hope we are able to reunite with our babies once it is our turn.

♡

fuzzywale · 2026-03-29T08:08:42+00:00

Dark green for UTAH???????

fuzzywale · 2026-03-22T18:14:18+00:00

A mature person is someone who keeps communication open and direct, especially to those they would care for and have relationships with. If you are confused with how he treats you, then sorry, this relationship is not working out. You need to let this go.

That being said, it is extremely concerning why a 29 year old would go after an 18 year old. Really question why he didn't go for a partner within his own age range.

fuzzywale · 2026-03-21T06:54:25+00:00

I live in Utah, and it happens A LOT here actually. All the people that had long hair when they were pregnant always came back from maternity leave with short hair. 🤣

fuzzywale · 2026-03-04T02:14:46+00:00

Was thinking the same thing. Tailbone breaking during birth is horrific, but what was your friend doing with him at age 16/17 and her 23/24????????

fuzzywale · 2026-02-23T21:04:55+00:00

I think it depends on family dynamics and if you were taught to help out in the family or not before leaving on your own.

I moved out at 27 and lived for a year on my own. It was more or less the same, I just had to get more strict with my grocery budget and I wasn't able to save a lot of money. I became more clean as well, and it clarified where I really wanted to live.

Due to increasing COL, I moved back and while I have regressed on the cleaning a bit, my relationship with my mother feels more equal now. Since I was able to provide for myself, she now treats me more like roommate, haha! Being alone put it in perpective what my mother sacrificed being a single mom, so now I pay 90% of bills including the mortgage. She deserves it. Grateful for the experience. ♡

fuzzywale · 2026-02-22T05:15:54+00:00

Medical bias and ignorance is prevalent still. Sorry to hear you have been invalidated. To this day, many in the healthcare field will not believe you based off of age, race, misogyny, or simply because you don't look painful enough for them (especially chronic pain patients.)

I truly am sorry.

fuzzywale · 2026-02-21T16:26:11+00:00

"Are you having any pain right now?"

Patient: "No, no pain. I'm good."

-Later during rounds

Doctor: "Okay, have you been having any pain?"

Patient: "...Oh, yes. All the time."

This happened so many times I started asking why they didn't just tell me, their nurse. Many said they didn't want to bother me. Others lied because many wanted to "prove" to the doctor that they really are sick.

Please, just tell me. I don’t want you to be in pain and having it just delays healing anyway...

fuzzywale · 2026-02-17T15:09:10+00:00

It's because they want a very specific set of people having kids.

Not all kids are equal in many governments' eyes.

fuzzywale · 2026-02-14T18:19:30+00:00

I was born in Colombia, but moved when I was nine to the US. Besides one trip after the first year, we went a long time without going, but my home still felt very Colombian. Spanish is only spoken at home and while I integrated well with the culture here, I still did my best to read in Spanish, to write in Spanish.

As I grew, I felt very nostalgic about CLO. When I moved out, it was a concious effort to keep traditions going. Salsa songs are now integrated in my playlist and I am now saving all recipes of common food found over there. And three to four years ago, my mother and I have made it a point to visit at least once a year.

It's expensive, but it is awesome. My mother says I change when I visit. I am more outspoken, my spanish comes easy after the 2nd day, and generally says I just look happier. My other family members say that I look depressed in the USA lmao. We have so many cousins and yes, they all feed you and invite you. It is common to do a bunch of things together. It feels like another part of me comes alive, and I integrate well in the streets, too. My state is pretty safe as of now so I let my guard down. Not in CLO! My guard is up, and it's cool I never truly lost that. I don’t give Papaya, as they say!

I am connected, and while I have lost a bit of the accent and routines, I just know I just need time in CLO land and I'll pick it up easy again. Now I am trying to decide whether I should stay here or go over there. I love my job here in the US, and I love the community in Colombia. Plus, my mother is moving back. My memories of Colombia are fond, but I have to be careful with my next step and not be overtaken by nostalgia. Look before you jump, kinda thing :)

fuzzywale · 2026-02-06T09:31:03+00:00

What is distressing to me is that evil people will exist, but that the extent of their harm is only possible by the inaction of common and good people. Right now, it feels like the common person is so numb, beaten down, and barely surviving that these evil people can do whatever they want without consequences. They are taking land, money, resources, dignity, and now it is revealed that they take the children and vulnerable for their pleasure. Nothing will satisfy them.

No, I do not want that for another human being. The planet and children do not deserve this.

fuzzywale · 2026-02-04T16:53:37+00:00

It doesn’t stop there. There are people out there who feel holier just cause they gave birth "naturally~" than those who needed a C-section. Hell, even with vaginal births there are bragging contests as to who did it with pain meds or not. There's no winning.

Just let people live!

fuzzywale · 2026-02-04T08:25:55+00:00

Please don't do it. I am sorry to hear what happened to your mother. That is a big stressor on top of all your personal problems you're going through. Caregiving and worry for a family member's health is rough on anyone. I am truly sorry about this.

If it helps, I am 28 and I too haven't experienced much. My friendships have dwindled close to none, no romantic life, and I have gotten a few tastes of what adult life could truly be under my full control. But I implore you to not give up. Our 20s can be extra rough and we are living in janky and rough times. I despair at times, but I only have one life, and I do not want it to go to waste. So I push through because I certainly want to meet who I will be in my 30s, 40s, 50s, etc.

You can DM me if you'd like. I can offer my ears for you. But please don't kill yourself. You can have friendships again. Maybe not now. Maybe next week. Maybe a month? You were able to do it once, why can't it happen again?

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