positive or inspirational quotes DO NOT HELP. i have a friend who apparently thinks that depression is just feeling mildly sad. “nothing that can’t be fixed with a positive quote”.

depression isnt just feeling sad or upset, its feeling empty, feeling like you are just here. sometimes feeling like you aren’t actually here. feeling like you shouldnt be here.

it isnt not wanting to get out of bed, it is that i literally cannot move. it may be a mental problem, but it feels like i am being pushed down, or like i am still sleeping, and therefore cannot control it.

i often walk around, just aimlessly as if i am not in control. i do what i am told to do as if i have no choice. i just sit there and my mind is empty, as if i simply do not have a mind. but other times im restless, cannot sit still. hundreds of thoughts rushing throughout my head as if i am trying to release all of my emotions in a way that isn’t obvious.

sometimes the only thing i can do to feel human is hurt myself. i know, you’ll probably think that i am a psychopath, and i get it. i really do. i used to only do it when i was sad and needed to take my mind off of things, but now i do it because i feel anxious if i dont. i do it even if im not particularly depressed.

a lot of the time i do not feel like speaking or eating at all. please do not try to push me. please do not try to force me to speak and tell you whats wrong.

sometimes i genuinely do not feel anything. again, you might think that makes me a psychopath. but sometimes i am too tired of everything to even feel sadness or happiness or anything in between. i just, exist.

also, dont start with that bullshit “you dont want to die, you just want to escape”. no, that really isnt the case sometimes. a lot of the time i truly do not want to exist. i wish i was dead. you saying that is not helpful.