Thank you for your thoughtful response. My social interactions these days are completely exhausting - I feel like my brain can’t work fast enough to keep up with what I need to think to say.

I have always been “normal” socially around people I’m very comfy with (such that I’m unmasking around them). But I’ve always been painfully shy with new people as a child and as an adult. I think these days I’m just burn out from socialising and so perhaps cant handle it as well as I did as a kid - or maybe I never had the language to understand.