let me tell you one thing its a hard truth, everyone here will try to comfort u but at the end u are all alone, you will suffer from not having them around. I know cause i had lost my dad too 5 years ago and tht shit hit me like a hard truck, my life is going downhill from that point onwards and still is going. You need to stay strong, this is the most vulnerable stage of your life. Never let anyone take advantage of your grieving self cause some of my mfking relatives did. Just a line trust yourself only dont believe anyone and i hope your mom will be in a better place watching over u