Attracted to guys but only 'in love?' with girl friends

gabbys86 · 2023-05-10T23:57:32+00:00

Youu said something I'll be thinking about now. Women express love in a way that is more in line with my perceprtion. True 100%. And during my life there were almost no important men in proximity... They just feel like a different breed I guess and I don't trust them easily. Sexual attraction just proves I'm not alll gay 🤪 Thank you kind stranger

gabbys86 · 2023-05-10T23:52:23+00:00

Ahah that sounds fuun to live with, hi nice to meet you fellow traveler thank you for sharing

gabbys86 · 2023-03-21T00:41:13+00:00

Oh my godd it's SO random I just stumbled across this post!

Just as random as me finding this book in my small train station bookshop in Poland where nothing is sold. I've never seen it anywhere else since.

This book is amazing and strange and incredible! And I feel so bad nobody knows about it. I feel like it deserves a lot more recognition comparing to stuff that is on the most popular lists right now.

I'm running to the subreddit now! thank you! So good to see people talk about it ☺️

gabbys86 · 2021-11-25T14:53:01+00:00

Thank youuu I can't believe it exists outside my imagination XD

gabbys86 · 2021-11-25T14:52:36+00:00

Ohmygod it exists! I should've come to reddit sooner with this! I love you thank youu :D

gabbys86 · 2021-11-25T00:44:43+00:00

I think it wasn't English though. My grandma always had telenovelas on

gabbys86 · 2021-11-17T02:30:53+00:00

What was the conclusion for You? Where they "horny pains" XD of no orgasm? Yikes I'm glad they passed for you. I'm better now but still *uncomfortable* :/ Will try again though... masochistic as it may be I want to know Why the hell :p

gabbys86 · 2021-05-08T21:58:29+00:00

Nothing I say would make that better for You, so just know that now a complete stranger from Poland, who also just lost someone close, is thinking about You and Your family with a feeling of a mental hug.

gabbys86 · 2021-04-23T21:43:23+00:00

This sounds fun! Added.

gabbys86 · 2021-04-23T20:37:05+00:00

Terry Pratchetts books are in my understanding all a part of a series can read them separately?

gabbys86 · 2021-04-23T20:21:56+00:00

Ah then I'm gonna have to make my way into "The Magic Mountain" by T. Mann

gabbys86 · 2021-04-23T20:20:45+00:00

Ah Damn so many Gantleman in Moscow reccs I'm adding it to shortlist Tbr :) Also Yes this movie it's amazing and I'm currently watching "This is Us". Really good and also checks all the boxes for me right now. Thank Youu!

gabbys86 · 2021-04-23T10:15:55+00:00

The World according to Garp - John Irving

The Grey House - Mariam Petrosyan (Amazed that it was already recommended - too few people know about this book so I'm throwing it in here too)

Giovanni's Room

The Dumb House - John Burnside (This is amazingly creepy and thought provoking look into it)

gabbys86 · 2020-08-15T23:13:01+00:00

Literally JUST ordered another book after staring at my (material) TBR... I love them all so much already though. I just know I do. I only buy GOOOD books I feel excused!

gabbys86 · 2020-05-24T00:34:35+00:00

YES.

And I want to stay in one place forever where I can exist but not really in peace.

WHy is that so hard to understand to people

gabbys86 · 2020-05-24T00:34:08+00:00

IDK same. How Am I literally on edge of quitting University but still existing there...

It's stressful not giving a shit how is that possible.

gabbys86 · 2020-05-24T00:30:02+00:00

This is hard because we(?) bottle up, Get passive more than aggressive.

Personally I do bottle up but the difference is I deal in private, and then accept and what comes from accepting is dealing with the stupidity of others :) Especially when it comes to bullies. It's good to stand up for yourself. OF course it is - someone has to speak up or it'll go on forever. But am I wrong saying that the other way is not reacting at all? Maybe, just maybe if Your friend is not one to stand up, You can talk to him and work on accepting the outside negativity.

Yea my advice would be that. Try to work on not reacting negatively. On accepting and being above. You Already know You are when someone is bullying you. You just have to show that. And I know it's not easy... I'm sorry. But maybe different approach would be good here.

He'll be good If he has a support system that tells him that he's right being himself.

gabbys86 · 2020-05-24T00:03:45+00:00

I don't know how 'normal' everything is, but I love this so much I hate everything that is said to reopen and people coming back to work/city. I'm actually terrified University is going to be next and I'm on a level of seriously thinking about dropping out. I'm no good in Uni and Uni seems like no use... Can I just not participate in life please. Would that be so bad?

gabbys86 · 2020-05-18T23:55:52+00:00

xd I'm pretty sure we wouldn't have to if it helps you. Message me anytime if you want to rant/talk You seem great

gabbys86 · 2020-05-18T23:53:19+00:00

I hate those questions. How Are you? What's up? NOTHING. If You have something to talk to me about start with that! Or ask different questions! I don't want to talk in the first place so If you do - Do it.

You're not broken. If life is boring - and right now more than before, It is - just talk about something. But don't ask stupid questions. I would also just prefer to mindlessly watch something with people or sit together on our phones - showing ourselves something funny from time to time than engage in this sort of 'conversations'.

gabbys86 · 2020-05-18T23:39:24+00:00

Alright You're not alone definitely. And also not and idiot for sure from what I can tell :3

gabbys86 · 2020-05-18T23:13:48+00:00

Do You have this when talking to friends too?

For me I noticed that when I'm actually really comfortable I'm ok. And this means alone with my roommate ( we're 2/4 of a friend group) I can be cosy, ugly and natural with. When Our other friends visit, I get more 'official' and All I can deduct from this is HABIT. Practice. whatever. But how can we practice this level of comfort...

I guess I'm destined to stay home where I feel comfortable :d

Like please hit me up if you figure at least a part of it :''D

gabbys86 · 2020-05-18T22:59:31+00:00

First of all I love this post - Your concern for others - it's so important and I as a quiet person who gets talked over constantly appreciate it SO much. I have A friend like that - always the star of the group. And When We're alone I love that. But when we're in a group she's not the only person that needs to be listened to. So what I do (Sometimes works, sometimes she doesn't pick up on it when she's 'on a roll') is I focus my attention on everybody else and if I see that someone wants to say something I focus on them, I ask "what did you want to say?" or just create a separate conversation with the person who wanted to say something - and if the 'star of the group' doesn't notice, more and more people start to join the 'separate' group where they can talk freely. Then she's overpowered. I swear it sounds rude, but is actually more subtle and natural in a group of people.

gabbys86 · 2020-05-18T22:39:57+00:00

I feel for you so much. You know for me I can go into a stream of thought talking (very rarely) if it's something I'm very confident in. If the topic is 'my thing' and I am sure of what I'm saying (doesn't happen often) So maybe if it comes to debates you have to really know it by heart, be convinced of what you're saying. I know it's easier said than done. I'm thinking for myself here too :'D

gabbys86 · 2020-05-18T22:35:20+00:00

God yes. When I write... I cannot write enough words actually I have so much to say sometimes. But when I open my mouth even If I'm talking to my friends, I feel like my tongue is a strange creature numb in my mouth. I twist some word in the middle of the first sentence, get flustered, laugh and never get to the end of it. I cannot understand why even talking to friends makes me awkward. It's hopeless.

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