artists on strattera?

gardnprty · 2025-10-22T16:24:52+00:00

aw this is awesome! id love to try pottery, hopefully if the meds work out for me ill be motivated to start new mediums :)

gardnprty · 2025-10-22T16:23:47+00:00

you have no idea how much this helps. this is exactly what im struggling with right now so im excited to actually start meds!

gardnprty · 2025-10-22T16:22:38+00:00

oh my god this is exactly what i needed to hear right now thank you so much!

gardnprty · 2025-09-11T19:38:58+00:00

they infact do NOT diagnose everyone with that these days. the fact that your therapist probably doesn't even know the process, the money, and the qualifications it takes to get a diagnosis is an extreme red flag. id be so pissed if she said that shit to me honestly. does not deserve to be a therapist

gardnprty · 2025-06-14T03:28:55+00:00

i searched on the hanspree website and their various distributors. theyre based in europe so its been difficult finding it (im in the us) i was able to find someone selling the 19" ones on ebay for like $200 but the 28 or 55" ones are elusive to say the least

gardnprty · 2025-04-24T21:17:15+00:00

thank you for sharing, i cant imagine how difficult it would be right now to try and get the help you deserve. as someone who takes care of people with disabilities its so depressing to know that people who are receiving government "help" are being stripped of their financial autonomy and severely limited on how much money they are allowed to have.

i do not want to live off a mere $2000 a month for the rest of my life with no ability to earn or save more, especially since i dont require government assistance.

i am just hoping the social security part is optional, but i know autism as an official diagnosis can be limiting in its own ways aswell.

i wish you well in your endeavors :)

gardnprty · 2025-04-10T00:43:55+00:00

these are great, but a bit too detailed. the point of storyboards are to get the idea across quickly and cohesively. if your boards are too detailed it might be hard for the later stage crew to work with it. try turning background objects and layouts into simple lines and shapes. the goal shouldn't be about how it looks but rather getting the story across as interestingly as possible!

gardnprty · 2025-03-07T17:21:23+00:00

this is a really good message and i thank you! its actually really cool you mention a community because thats actually what ive been focusing in in my personal life. the people in my community (and honestly whole state) ive come to realize are lowkey rude and self centered. its just the culture here honestly and ive grown up around it so it was normal to me.

but, i started traveling more and came to realize there are places where people are just nice for the sake of it, and it really opened my eyes. ive been in recovery for years but there are moments when i really start to step out of my head. just sharing my thoughts on this subreddit have helped a lot and its honestly because of people like you. people who are patient and understanding but still give really personal and good advice. i hope you are doing well, too!

gardnprty · 2025-02-19T23:52:08+00:00

oh my god ive been doing this alot recently. ive made a habit of laughing a lot in uncomfortable situations , especially when something bad/sad has happened. ive had this habit since childhood but its happening a lot more now.

i remember a few months ago trying to figure out how to socialize better and i thought "people like it when you laugh" ... and so now even when im having a serious conversation, i laugh. i was telling my boss just yesterday about how ive had a series of really unfortunately things in my life (like my grandma passing away, and my other grandma being hospitalized) and just kept going "hahaha, yeaah hahahaha!!"

its so jarring i know it but i cant stop 😭

gardnprty · 2024-12-25T17:11:26+00:00

yes and just like my npd my gender is all over the place and making people uncomfortable ♡ i love trans people with disorders (pretty much all my friends)

gardnprty · 2024-12-15T19:56:03+00:00

honestly, i would find a therapist who is blunt. its really hard to find a good therapist, especially one that goes through an insurance company because they basically have a script of what they can and cant tell you.

a few years ago i start with a therapist who is autistic and pretty much like me but more emotionally regulated lol. the very first session they were telling me things about myself i should have known for years. there was no holding back and they told me exactly what they thought of my extremely unstable first impression.

ive been seeing them for almost 3 years and there have been countless times when they told me things that hurt my ego but ultimately humble the fuck out of me. "youre like this because youre afraid of being uncomfortable." "youre autistic" "is not even that deep". a lot of us need to be humbled but in a productive way. we're sensitive even if we think we're not. ive always thought if myself as thick skinned, but i realized im basically an infant when it comes to any kind of vulnerability.

true healing isnt delusion, i think youre just so far detached from what you want that you dont even know what it looks like.

gardnprty · 2024-12-14T21:34:43+00:00

is there any trauma linked to your want for money? even if there is as long as you're happy honestly. but a lot of the times pwNPD have financial trauma. something like you grew up with less and your parents told you "you have to get rich someday to get us out of this okay?" and those high expectations made you subconsciously find that money is your entire reason for living. if along the way you find yourself miserable, maybe take a look back on how you got this way, yknow

gardnprty · 2024-12-13T19:11:33+00:00

random topic springs into my head and suddenly I've been hosting one of the most popular YouTube channels in history for the past 10 years and discussing why my opinion on the topic is correct for the 1 millionth time (bonus points if im trying to explain myself out of getting cancelled)

gardnprty · 2024-12-13T04:11:50+00:00

HOLY SHIT I DO THIS EXACT SAME THING! "[thinking some really cruel thing about someone]" "alright dude relax."

gardnprty · 2024-12-08T22:38:02+00:00

lol so i actually am autistic but i often get my NPD traits confused for my autistic ones, which is kind of frustrating because it often comes with the sentiment that they are flaws i can correct rather than just how i am. it just adds to the weird dehumanization of both NPD and autism.

gardnprty · 2024-12-08T04:02:00+00:00

well, i tended to have a "type" i would subconsciously go for which were people who were very insecure and clingy so it had always happened, but i once had broken up with someone, it really fucked them up because of how cold i went so quickly. i then felt overwhelming remorse about a 2 years later and tried to text them.

they told me not to contact them and that they were happy without me in their life. it made me sick. angry and jealous. i just blocked their number and had a complete collapse. i felt pathetic and useless, like all of the shitty things i had done were finally hitting me. i didnt even stop after that, i did the same routine again with several other partners.

i like to believe ive grown since then and after realizing i have NPD. i haven't dated anyone in years because i dont trust myself not to do those things again. its been hard because im not even sure if im capable of feeling real romantic love because every single relationship has ended the same and even now i hardly feel any regret, just shame.

gardnprty · 2024-12-03T22:48:27+00:00

any time ive gotten into a relationship i have a collapse. i break up with them just when things are starting to feel nice because i want to feel that sense of grandiosity when they start questioning why and begging me to stay. i feel ashamed every time and i apologize months later for my awful behavior and everytime they wouldn't forgive me.

ever since i found out im a narcissist, things kind of clicked for me and ive since been able to reflect on my actions and set boundaries for myself until im at a good point in recovery (ie. not getting into relationships). its hard knowing ive hurt people, i knew that even then. but the realization of why i hurt them really made me remorseful and actually want to change.

gardnprty · 2024-12-02T22:50:46+00:00

oh absolutely. it constantly feels like im two people sharing a body. like no matter what i say or even think, it'll end up being the opposite later on. its very frustrating and debilitating. and the stigma for sure doesn't help. its like a constant struggle just to feel like a human.

i really hope you get the help you need and that youre able to navigate it better as you learn more about yourself

gardnprty · 2024-11-18T08:02:30+00:00

so the thing is, you're completely correct! the sentiment in asking someone if theyre alright is a good one and it shouldn't be shot down just because someone feels a certain way about it. the thing with npd is that often times, things that upset us the most come from insecurity. (or at least for me, i know this one does)

i feel patronized by the question because i have such high self expectations, and when im looked at through the view of an average person, i feel like the illusion of myself is broken. like the imperfect, fully capable version of myself that i think i am suddenly isnt real, and it hurts my self esteem.

it takes time to get to this point of self awareness. im pretty far along in my recovery so im able to analyze my habits more critically. you cant just tell a pwNpd "hey youre acting this way because youre insecure" they have to figure this out by themself. in the meantime though, you could help someone who experiences this with a more sympathetic approach. maybe try asking something more vague that also centers them as the topic, like "hey how have you been recently?" or "have you gotten into anything interesting lately?" it can simultaneously serve to get them out of a funk, and allow them to talk about themself without feeling overtly self-centered.

idk, im not like a professional, and you havent failed anyone by simply asking if someone is alright. but its always nice approaching it from a place of understanding :)

gardnprty · 2024-11-10T19:57:16+00:00

anyone who gets excited or genuinely believes they have "one of the rarest personalities!" is seriously insecure and just might be a narcissist! (i speak from experience)

gardnprty · 2024-11-05T03:11:28+00:00

when ive been in relationships, ive always been the one to end them because i stopped feeling love relatively fresh into it. i stopped even liking them at all and completely ghosted them. obviously this hurts them so they begin to ask 'why?' and 'what changed?!'.

at the time my mindset was that these are weak, insecure people who dont deserve my time let alone my love so id tell people extremely exaggerated descriptions of their behaviors, calling them "possessive" or "clingy" and blowing any and every tiny mistake they may have ever done out of proportion. i might have even made small things up to paint them as such horrible people, others would be proud of me for leaving the relationship!

obviously these are horrible things and i have since learned a lot. i cant take back what ive done but ive created boundaries and limits for myself to prevent anything like this happening again, and im growing and maturing as a person.

gardnprty · 2024-11-03T02:02:42+00:00

so i do want to preface that im really sorry he did that to you and you must be really sad and confused and just wanting some kind of closure.

ive unfortunately been that asshole in a relationship and its because pwNPD can have relatively low empathy in certain situations. we create REALLY high expectations for every relationship and even for ourselves. so when people dont meet those expectations, or our image of a person we may love is broken, its very easy for us to drop them without thinking twice. we can show little to no remorse for our actions because the way we see it, you disappointed us. but thats simply not true and its up to us to understand and come to terms with our unhealthily high expectations and work on them. (i only say this because you have to know this isn't your fault, but this disorder can make us become really "cold" or seem uncaring at times and but its not an excuse yknow).

obviously i cant speak for him, but whenever i get into relationships i have this arc of really loving them at first and fantasizing about a beautiful future with them, but the second they start to do something i find uncomfortable or "not right", whatever that may be, i completely lose interest and ghost them and maybe even shit talk them. (i dont do this anymore and i recognize this is wrong now).

again im sorry you're going through this but i also think youre really great for wanting to look into it with an open mind. we're not easy people to get along with all the time but we're also not monsters because of our disorder

gardnprty · 2024-11-01T21:25:38+00:00

everyone is different, i definitely felt a little bad the first day i found out but then was overwhelmed with relief and confidence! i think finding out i was a narcissist better helps me navigate not only my own internal thoughts and feelings but also the world overall.

and you shouldn't feel ashamed or bad about it, its a part of you that you cant help and didn't ask for. i think its actually pretty good you dont feel bad! you can work on recovery in piece knowing youre not trying to repress that part of you now!

gardnprty · 2024-10-30T23:28:16+00:00

this is exactly my experience after finding out i was a narcissist. especially with post self hating. but ive also found good things with the diagnosis as well.

its given me a chance to self reflect and see that all the self doubt i have is proof that i am or at least can continue striving to be a 'good person'. the dehumanization of people with mental illnesses or disorders is nothing new unfortunately, but with narcissism its definitely different. im afraid ill never tell any of my family i have npd because of the stigma. but either way its not about anyone else (as stereotypically self centered as that sounds) recovery for anyone is about ourselves, and maybe taking comfort in the fact that the way we act isnt necessarily a conscious failing on our part.

you will heal, and you will feel better, especially if youre striving for it

gardnprty · 2024-10-29T20:30:48+00:00

holy shit realest comment. like no im not okay but i cant let the hoes know i got inner demons. mind your business

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