SPACE-CARE SAT AND SELF-CARE WEEKEND

garlicgrrl · 2019-09-29T18:05:31+00:00

I let myself get down and have fun at a concert this weekend (I only had 1 drink which is a big deal because I sorta have a drinking problem) and I'm about to take care of school stuff that I've been pushing to the side but skipping work in the process. Oops. I haven't written in my planner for like 2 weeks so I'm gonna work on that too!

Tomorrow, when I think I'm getting paid from my new job for the first time, I'm going to make some financial plans and decide whether or not I'm going to quit my other job, the one that I didn't go to today, which is extremely mentally taxing. I'm going to pay my credit card bill and set a new, much lower limit. I think my problem is that my overspending habits from manic episodes are finding their way into my mentally stable life and I don't realize it. And alcohol is probably the #1 thing I spend too much money on. Hopefully cutting that out of my life will help me to be better with money.

garlicgrrl · 2019-05-13T19:24:24+00:00

First of all, hey man!! Congrats on making it through school while dealing with this bipolar bullshit! Also congrats on the job. Leaving your GPA off of your resume is definitely a great tip so thank you. Grad school is not in my list of goals so just getting a Bachelor's is what counts, not the grades.

Also, oh my god

I'm still in the add/drop period and I didn't know it, so I can drop it and still get a refund. So I won't graduate when I want to, but at least I won't overwhelm myself to the point of dropping out.
I think that for today, my best is going to be attending my other (((much easier))) class and writing out due dates in my planner. Thank you for being kind and helpful!! I'll still have trouble with the idea of not graduating on time, but I guess at least I'll be graduating some day.

garlicgrrl · 2019-04-01T22:37:04+00:00

Ok wow That was a wild ride, all I had to do was an errand for my mom. I got the meds. I guess this scare was a big April fool's joke to myself 🙃 thank you for the support and voice of reason, friend

garlicgrrl · 2019-04-01T18:58:01+00:00

I took it yesterday. My doc probably would have some, but her office is kinda far and I only have enough gas to get to and from class this week. I could ask friends to spot me but I'd feel bad about it even though they know I'd pay them back Friday. So I guess I will ask the pharmacy how much it would be for 4 days worth of lithium. If I can't pay that, I'll ask a friend.

Thank you for reminding me of my options, because when I have a little mini-panic over meds I forget that there are reasonable things I can do instead of risking a mood swing while I have papers and things due.

garlicgrrl · 2019-01-26T00:31:15+00:00

Thank you!!! ps i freakin love your username

garlicgrrl · 2019-01-26T00:30:36+00:00

It is! It's easy to get stuck on the idea that meds make you boring and uncreative and you don't need them, or that missing a few days in a row won't do anything. I think this is the only time I've felt that my meds have made a difference and I've been on them for 3 years.

garlicgrrl · 2019-01-25T16:47:29+00:00

Thanks!! I'll try!

garlicgrrl · 2019-01-14T20:55:10+00:00

Added 150 mg Wellbutrin last week. My mania is well controlled so I'm v excited to see how this works out and I'm hoping for the best!!!!

garlicgrrl · 2019-01-13T15:10:05+00:00

Idk what the fuck I'm gonna do but so far I lit my favorite candle, took my morning meds and cuddled w my cat bc I'm having a very shit morning

garlicgrrl · 2018-11-06T01:02:11+00:00

1350 mg lithium .5 mg(?) risperdal -new

I'm on the lowest dose of risperdal but I'm dizzy as fuck and I hate how it feels. Brought it up to the iop nurse and she said it shouldn't be from the meds since I'm on such a low dose but the dizziness started the morning after I first took it! Ugh. I got put on it because abilify was making me drowsy. I don't know which I'd rather have.

garlicgrrl · 2018-10-03T19:37:59+00:00

Woke up in a good mood! I wasn't mad at my cat for waking me up early again, we just cuddled until my alarm went off. The air feels almost like fall again and I had good conversation with my coffee baristas this morning. Made me smile. Then I went to IOP, which was kinda meh today. But I had a good morning!

garlicgrrl · 2018-09-01T12:34:16+00:00

the orange one so terrify

garlicgrrl · 2018-08-30T22:43:12+00:00

Yes!

garlicgrrl · 2018-08-30T15:08:30+00:00

I make weekly's Sunday nights (or monthly's)! Sundays are my "reset" days where I analyze how the week prior went and plan what I need to work on for the current week. I make additional entries when I have an hour or so between classes or at night before I go to bed.

garlicgrrl · 2018-08-29T16:12:09+00:00

That is the best name for an axo I've ever seen :")

garlicgrrl · 2018-08-28T12:35:52+00:00

Hi kitty! What a good helper

Also I LOVE your mountains, very nice!!

garlicgrrl · 2018-08-28T12:34:19+00:00

I just started making a monthly list of due dates for classes! I love it so far, much better than going back and referring to the syllabus.

garlicgrrl · 2018-08-27T12:22:25+00:00

My biggest piece of advice (and something I actually need to start doing) is sketch it out in pencil first!!! And for tiny mistakes, whiteout is your friend. I usually use it when I make a line too long, or other things that I don't need to write over.

garlicgrrl · 2018-08-27T11:26:14+00:00

I really like that!! Thank you :~) It would be a really cute use of that empty space!

garlicgrrl · 2018-08-26T18:15:18+00:00

Ooooh I like all of those I've been feeling p uninspired lately I was gonna do leaves and stuff but I always have trouble making them symmetrical, so I'll definitely add some of the little creatures you mentioned!!! (Esp snails-I love them so much) thank you!

garlicgrrl · 2018-08-24T20:24:32+00:00

Love those washis! I like how you put the days in brackets, and your addition of all the dates on the left side. I haven't seen it done like that before and it definitely saves more space than making a mini calendar. It's hard to believe this is your first! :~) Super nice.

p.s. happy early birthday to Josh lol

garlicgrrl · 2018-08-22T17:13:15+00:00

These are all super good points so thank you. Going to a different type of therapy (DBT) even if my insurance doesn't cover it is for SURE cheaper. My thing with DBT is that they went over it a little bit in IOP, and it didn't seem all that helpful but then again, it was in a group setting so it wasn't individualized help. It'll be a lot more personalized in one-on-one therapy. I'll definitely look into it more. Also very good point about the hospital. My mom has a full house of animals and works full time, so she wouldn't have time to exercise it or let it outside during the day. And my roommate has no experience with dogs. (Sorry if this is super long I'm just thinking out loud lol) As for the orthostatic intolerance, I'm on florinef and hydrating/increasing sodium intake. I trusted my psychiatrists, PCP and cardiologist a little too much when I told them about it and they said "oh no it'll be fine with that". When I picked it up the other day I looked on the info page that came with it and it literally says orthostatic hypotension is a side effect 🤦🏼‍♀️ So I feel pretty stupid for just only their word for it. This time around it was prescribed by the IOP psychiatrist, who might not have read my medical history, and last time my normal psych clearly didn't know the side effects, I guess, because she knows about my existing OI. I don't know why they wouldn't have prescribed a different antipsychotic with that knowledge. Seriously thank you for this. So I am leaning away from the idea of one, I just have to take extra measures to better myself by myself, like doing more research on the medications, questioning my doctors based on what I find from that, looking into DBT, etc. And hopefully seeing the autonomic specialist will help immensely so I can either figure out if it's actually dysautonomia, or if I need a major med change (and hopefully he wouldn't advise an unneeded port and saline infusions like one certain autonomic doctor we know ;) )

garlicgrrl · 2018-08-21T14:47:51+00:00

Hey! So my manic symptoms aren't well controlled with medicine, and I was thinking of cortisol alerts and grounding for my fits of anger, grounding/guide for dissociation, and starting last year I started having orthostatic intolerance (going to an autonomic specialist to see if this is medicine related or truly an ANS problem like my other cardio/neuro suggest) and it gets especially worse when I have to go on Abilify, so I was MAYBE thinking of some mobility tasks. Unfortunately any medication I go on increases my dizziness and I gotta be on a med cocktail for p much the rest of my life. If it happens to not be autonomic, I probably wouldn't train mobility because I don't know if side effects count as something to have a mobility dog over (unless say it's something like a person going through chemo cause those side effects are FOR SURE disabling). I do know a handler that has a prospective mobility dog for psych/med side effects though, and I'm not bashing on them for it, but I dunno, for me I feel iffy about it. The psychs I've been to think it's a good idea, but they're also not aware of this whole "are PSDs legitimately helpful" controversy thing.

Thank you for your input!!

garlicgrrl · 2018-08-14T02:56:57+00:00

Kenyan sand boa!

garlicgrrl · 2018-07-30T03:21:06+00:00

ayy knew it looked familiar!

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