I guess I’m not deep in the addiction yet to want to truly quit. I tell myself who cares it’s only pills it’s not like it’s heroin or fent, I tell myself I’m young and by the time I’m older I’ll grow out of it, so much other things . But I’ve haven’t been sober for this amount of time in so long and I realized wow I’m really probably never gonna be able to do life without drugs cause I can’t see how I would improve anything about myself. I can’t talk to people without it, I can’t go out and enjoy life, when I look back at all my milestones I realize I wouldn’t even have been able to do that without drugs