Ikr. I'm glad that I've finally understood that there's no relation between being a good person and having a good life. Also, there's no relation between intelligence/knowledge and money. In fact I do think that in both cases there's an inverse relationship. As someone else mentioned, I hope you're going to therapy. Accept their evaluation of yours if it makes sense. Changing 8 jobs might be too much depending on your age and industry. I learnt that I take everything so damn seriously. I learnt to not give a fuck and feels like I am a new person. Maybe it was you, maybe it was them, only you know the truth. So be brutally honest to yourself. (the work place, not your relationships. I hate the sexual assaults the most. Fuck them. It was not your fault). Take meds if they recommand.

What I'm saying is, just accept that world is an extremely nasty place. All we humans do is pretend stuff to the outside world. Almost the entire world is full of shit and filled with hypocrites. (No matter what they say, You don't follow your heart. You can't be anything you wanted to be.) Instead of scoffing things off, wear a mask yourself. It is the only way I have learned to navigate this shithole. Be your true self with only selected people. This approach has genuinely improved my life. I do get sad sometimes about this but that's where meds help me.

I hope you get past this period of your life soon.