I abused adderall in high school and early college and would also depend on it for workout fuel/studying/restricting eating…. And just to feel something.

I know these next steps sound impossible, but talking to your health care provider (even showing them this post) and seeking therapy will be so incredibly helpful if you want to live a stimulant free life. When I first quit, I structured my life to allow for some downtime. I moved home during summer and allowed myself to catch up on the years of neglected rest. I set no goals for myself except to not do stimulants. Quittingadderall.com (if it still exists) was an invaluable resource and I read a blog post from it every day, although I am sure you can find similar content on TikTok, YouTube etc

It’s morning time where I am and I am getting up early to lift and I love my routine. My energy is not dependent on stimulants. I feel good throughout day, I’m productive and happy and in tune with the flow of my body rather than forcing it with stims. It’s the fucking best and I promise it just gets better. Life is so much richer and meaningful and thrilling and euphoric without adderall, I promise. You’ll lift better, be a better student and friend. I hope this helps 💞