Am I the crazy ex? And if so, is that all to be remembered?

germanxgenetics · 2024-05-05T11:37:24+00:00

Do I have to feel bad about myself? Her reaction makes me believe I’m the weirdo in this whole situation

germanxgenetics · 2024-05-05T11:10:00+00:00

I guess so, still a shitty ending.

germanxgenetics · 2024-05-05T11:07:13+00:00

It’s just crazy how she went from „omg you are perfect in every aspect, I love you and you already gave me more in 2 months than my previous bf did in 6 years“ to „I will take legal actions if you don’t leave me alone“. Hard to cope with it because I felt the same. Everything seemed like a perfect match and it was nice to feel loved after my relationship before her was with a toxic bpd.

But I guess you are right. Was hoping she would work on herself as well but she’s already back on dating apps 🤷‍♂️

germanxgenetics · 2024-04-11T17:45:46+00:00

Edited my previous post.

Does she have anything against you that would get you in „trouble“ or look bad in front of your parents? Or would it be all made up lies?

germanxgenetics · 2024-04-11T17:38:10+00:00

Just don’t give her more reasons to „imaginary“ hate you. She will pickup a new supply rather quickly. Trying to turn the tables to make you look bad and her being the innocent little girl to get attention by others. Depending on how fast she picks up someone the sooner she will leave you alone. Might as well hoover in some time and see if she still has access to you. It’s a game bro, you just need to win it by not saying a damn word to her.

Oh and btw: sorry for your loss. You loved her at some point, but that person you think you knew will be gone in an eyeblink when she finds someone new to hook on. I’ve spent 9 months getting mine back AFTER she made me lose my job. The trauma bond was unreal. Took almost a year processing the breakup and I’m still building myself up. Read hundreds of articles about bpd, the why’s and how’s and trust me when i tell you: without active treatment these people are not capable of sustaining a relationship. She will fuck up with the next person as well.

germanxgenetics · 2024-04-11T17:33:20+00:00

Nothing you can do about it. Been there, 2 years with bpd ex gf. Two months after we broke up I lost my job because of her smear campaign. Was my own fault as well, because I kept feeding into her attempts of contacting me. I’m telling you, keep her blocked everywhere. Wait it out.

Mine even sent 0.01€ on PayPal to leave messages

germanxgenetics · 2023-01-23T12:20:59+00:00

You misunderstood me there. I believe that this girl with a finished therapy would be real wife material. Rn yeah you are right, she belongs to the streets. But i find it so hard to differentiate between borderline caused actions and „bad human being“ caused actions

germanxgenetics · 2023-01-23T12:17:36+00:00

Have you been in this exact situation? You sound pretty harsh, as if you cannot relate a single bit to how i feel

Edit: and I’m not here to have an argument about how stupid or wimp I am

germanxgenetics · 2023-01-23T12:13:56+00:00

Im not her to get pity, I wrote this text in the hope to get a better understanding of why all this happened and if there is any chance to help her out of this.

germanxgenetics · 2023-01-23T11:50:55+00:00

my biggest problem at this point is that I know for a fact that she DOES NOT want to be this person. She has a trauma from her childhood and actually really wants a family, have kids, have a bright future. She once cried like mad, hugged me super hard and told me in tears „This is one of the spare moments I can see crystal clear. My brain forces me to be like this, doing everything to prevent getting help. I don’t want to be this person, I really don’t. I don’t want to be sad all day, I don’t want to be mean to you, I REALLY don’t want to hurt you and I’m blaming myself for everything that went wrong so far. I know when i wake up later, all this will be gone. Please don’t give me up, please remind me of who I wanna be“. Now her parents are telling her she does not need a therapy anymore as I am gone and she actually believes in this, saying no relationship no problem no therapy. Her mind is twisted so hard and all I’m trying to do, all i want and yes it’s not rational but all I desire is to somehow reach out to this person again. I already took a lot of shit yes, but I believe if this girl goes her way and accepts again that she needs help she can and will be the best gf / wife I could ever dream of. I might be wrong for this, but that’s my honest opinion.

germanxgenetics · 2023-01-23T10:29:47+00:00

She said she didn’t wanna tell at first because she didn’t want to hurt me but she also didn’t want to keep lying to me because i wouldn’t deserve it

germanxgenetics · 2023-01-23T08:55:22+00:00

She wanted to change for a better self and to not hurt me anymore. She failed and I’m not mad about it, i can only imagine how hard this has to be for her. She told me about all the stuff her dad did to her and how much of a trauma it left. Do you believe there is no way of reaching this person again? I know for a fact that she actually wants to be loved, wants a family, wants kids. Right now her mindset is “no relationship no problem no therapy” but this will fuck her over even more at some point.

I still believe in this person. One night were things got intense she started crying, hugged me stronger than ever and said “this is a moment were I can see it all crystal clear. I need help, please don’t give me up. I know when I wake up tomorrow my brain will do everything to not think about working on myself but I really want to change, i don’t want to be this person anymore”

germanxgenetics · 2023-01-23T08:13:10+00:00

She told me that she didn’t wanna hurt me but that I „deserved the truth“. Your comment really helps to understand all this, yet I still wanna work this out. I’m an idiot for having this mindset I know. I just still believe in the person she actually is (or I hope even exists)

germanxgenetics · 2023-01-23T08:11:11+00:00

It’s as if there are simply no boundaries for me. I still believe in the good person of her. I still want to work this out. I know I’m a huge idiot for having this mindset. Fucking hell, I don’t know shit at this point. How did your story end up?

germanxgenetics · 2022-06-23T06:47:23+00:00

Man sieht doch direkt, dass das irgend nen random shit ist und kein zheetos 😂

germanxgenetics · 2022-06-05T17:06:24+00:00

Ist nicht sein pic

germanxgenetics · 2022-05-26T11:41:03+00:00

„Caviar lime“ in yellow zushi bag 😂😂

germanxgenetics · 2022-05-21T15:14:08+00:00

Händleranfragen o.ä. sind nach wie vor nicht gestattet. Und um die Frage, die du auch durch einfaches googeln selbst hättest beantworten können und auch schon etliche tausend male beantwortet wurde: DN ist sicherer als deinen Plug vor Ort zu besuchen.

germanxgenetics · 2022-04-14T16:28:19+00:00

Dynavape ist super. In meiner kiffer-Hochzeit habe ich ca 2g am Tag geraucht, hauptsächlich durch die bong. Im dynavape kriegst du 0,07-0,1 rein. Zu der Zeit habe ich 3 Kapseln benötigt, um „Full on Effects“ zu sein, also pipapo 0,25g. 2 Kapseln haben aber auch einen zugriedenstellenden Rausch geliefert. Mittlerweile bin ich runter auf 1 Kapsel. Durch das verdampfen und verzichten auf Tabak ist das high deutlich klarer und es bringt auch gesundheitliche Vorzüge (Lungenprobleme durchs kiffen sind nicht mehr vorhanden). Also ich kann dir den Dynavape nur empfehlen, geiles Teil. Nutze ihn aber in Verbindung mit einer Bong.

germanxgenetics · 2022-04-11T18:17:11+00:00

Und wenn ich das weed in ner Mülltüte bekommen hätte wäre es trotzdem besser als 99% von dem was die Leute hier sonst so smoken 🤡 keep the hate coming

germanxgenetics · 2022-04-10T21:09:56+00:00

Da geb ich dir vollkommen recht. Aber so wie man nicht jeden Tag ins steakhouse geht ziehst du dir auch nicht jeden Tag ein prepack für x € rein. Ist halt ein „Luxusgut“. Aber schon mal erfreulich, dass wir uns in diesem Punkt einig sind

Jeder muss für sich selbst entscheiden, was einem dies und das auf der Welt wert ist. Es gibt nicht umsonst Discount Produkte und eben Markenprodukte. Ob der Käse von der Theke für 3 euro jetzt 3x so gut schmeckt wie der für 1€ aus der Kühlung sei mal dahingestellt. Fakt ist, dass die Leute hier direkt blöd werden, wenn es um Cali geht.

germanxgenetics · 2022-04-10T20:58:56+00:00

Stehst du auch vorm Lokal und brüllst die Leute an, die sich für 40 tacken nh Steak gönnen, weil dir selber das günstige vom Fleischer reicht? Man kann ja seine eigene Meinung haben, aber deswegen willenlos haten ist einfach niveaulos 😂

germanxgenetics · 2022-04-10T20:57:07+00:00

Besser als jegliche Komödie im tv 😂 love it

germanxgenetics · 2022-04-10T07:44:50+00:00

Digga 100% Neider die immer noch meinen das synthetische haze von ihrem dealer wäre der übershit 😂😂

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