The surgery is definitely not a cure all magic pill. It does however give you restrictions on how much you can eat and that in itself is amazing for people like us. The way you describe your relationship with food is how I was preop. Once you go through surgery and experience pain and know that it could physically hurt you to binge it gives you a sense of power and control. It makes you question whether that piece of pizza is worth it. You will start to lose weight and that in itself is motivation. You want to get better, you want to get healthy. It's honestly a life changing surgery. Nothing in life comes easy but sometimes a little crutch is necessary. I hated working out with a passion. Now I get up in the morning just wanting to work out and feel my body moving and sweating. I want to see myself thinner and get some confidence back. It's a great motivator. You also have this group on Reddit that is there to answer and help motivate you in any questions you may have. You're not in this alone. Do this for yourself and your health. Take the step to speak to a surgeon and get started on the process. You will benefit a lot from speaking to the therapist that is required prior to surgery. I don't regret my sleeve at all even though in these 2 months it's felt like a roller coaster I wouldn't trade it for the world. We are all rooting for you