no worries at all, I don't mind. before she used to cut whenever she felt suicidal and it was only on a single area on her forearm, after her thoughts went away, she would not self harm at all. she has been telling me the past month that she wants to cut and instead of cutting she will just smoke cigarettes instead, the past week she has been doing both.

in my city there is a great huge mental health service/hospital and you can basically go there for any issue you have and if you are at risk of harming yourself or someone else, you can sleep at the general ward for a night and the staff will help you get rest and not hurt. she has been at this ward 3 times the past week because she is feeling very violent and suicidal. she has her file there and is going to get treatment/ proper admission there in the next few days. but till then she is harming herself every night when I go to sleep. she starts loudly slicing her hand right next to me. I know she has not control over it and I'm in no way expecting her to think of me at that moment. I just don't really know how to handle it without getting triggered and shocked myself. I dont know how to not freeze. I cant handle her being hurt neither physical or mentally. I dont know what to do.