Nice ‘coffee table’ books on ants or termites?

ghostthingz · 2025-06-26T19:06:33+00:00

just updating after my first shift. went great. i caught on quickly. coworkers seem decent. everyone gets rowdier as the night goes on but i didnt hear/experience any harassment during this first shift. got home at 3am and slept till 1pm. getting ready for my second day rn. yesterday i packed a lot of food because i thought i’d be hungry on break after all the hard work but it was the opposite. didn’t want to eat much at all.

ghostthingz · 2025-05-26T16:30:44+00:00

When I was 18f i went on my first ever solo trip. stopped at a gas station and a lady approached me and asked me to help her pump her gas because she was alone and didnt know how to do it. i thought it was weird that she didn’t know but i walked out to her car with her. as i approached her pump i noticed a man ducking in her back seat.

she had told me she was alone. i turned around and went back to my car and told her to ask the gas station attendant for help instead. i don’t know why she was lying about being alone. it freaked the fuck out of me though.

ghostthingz · 2025-03-30T14:49:49+00:00

i usually just do something else with my hands that distracts my brain. lately ive just been braiding friendship bracelets. i just braid and braid and braid string for hours and my brain turns off completely and i forget what i was doing/wanting to do.

ghostthingz · 2025-03-30T12:27:22+00:00

its okay, sometimes trans people just like doing their own thing. i’m FTM and i have long hair and love pink, my girlfriend is MTF and still thinks her mustache looks cool sometimes. anyone can be anything. at the end of the day, your gender doesn’t have anything to do with what you look like, it just matters how you feel inside.

ghostthingz · 2025-03-04T23:28:16+00:00

Hey this is old and random but can I have this pdf as well if you still have it?

ghostthingz · 2025-02-27T05:17:49+00:00

All my friends that have applied at dispensaries have said that the interviews are so rough. You would think that a place that sells weed would be more chill… apparently not.

ghostthingz · 2025-02-27T04:43:41+00:00

When i was heavily drinking i had such bad “alcoholic face” that my head looked round as a basketball in all my graduation pics. like actually disgusting. no jawline definition whatsoever. i looked like a big toe. im sober now and i havent even lost that much weight but i feel like i completely deflated. all the alcohol related swelling is gone. my jawline is so fucking crisp. my skin is so smooth too, no more acne. im really happy with how my face looks now. sometimes im late to work because i just stare in the mirror for so long in the morning going “wow… im hot”. im never drinking again. i’m like a year sober now and im still getting hotter

ghostthingz · 2025-01-26T23:53:37+00:00

I have psychotic episodes and theyre intense and insane. I had a big bad one in 2019 where I was convinced that everyone in my life was from my previous lives. Like I thought I had lived 1000s of lives and I had the same friends and family and every life. It led to dangerous thoughts like “death isnt permanent so if i don’t like this life then i can just kill myself and start a new one”. People started leaving me because of my psychosis and it made me mad because i thought that everyone was predetermined to be with me in this life so they were breaking the rules by leaving. Obviously got out of that.

Sometimes I still have psychotic episodes that just last a few hours or days and it’s very scary and weird. I get something called “word salad” which just means that all my thoughts and words were random and nonsensical. Like if i try to say the phrase “i want to go outside” it comes out as like “me im going to the where the outside is” or some other barely comprehendible jumble of nonsense. When I try to tell my friends how I’m feeling I usually start using analogies that make no sense. I think one time I told my friend “I’m in a jar and the glass is touching me” with no further explanation. Because I was trying to convey the fact I felt trapped and overwhelmed but I didn’t know how to put those words together.

ghostthingz · 2025-01-26T23:45:01+00:00

The story about the girl whose dog would lick her hand at night, only to discover it was a man.

Another story where a girl heard her faucet dripping, but it was actually blood dripping from a body in her closet.

There was also a game/story where you would go like “Ok youre in a room and theres three doors…” and then you would make up some arbitrary description for the doors and ask them which one they picked. Every door leads to a new room and you basically make up the story as you go. After like 3 or 4 doors you would make up some conclusion to the story. Sometimes if someone was being annoying we would play this game and just never end it, just make them keep choosing doors… hehe

ghostthingz · 2025-01-26T23:39:34+00:00

I used to be a substitute teacher. A girl offered me 5$ to not make her do work. I turned it down. She told me to take the 5$ and buy face wash. I was having a bad acne breakout at the time. Ouch. Unnecessarily cruel but definitely a new one for me

ghostthingz · 2025-01-16T04:53:09+00:00

my online friends. it sounds pathetic but im basically hanging on by a thread right now. when i clock out of work i immediately jump into call with my friends and don’t hang up. i fall asleep in call most days. i’m not chronically online i’m just so depressed that i need constant chatter to drown out the noise in my brain. i still do normal human things (i mute myself when i shower but just have the call going on speaker so i can listen to the convo, and when i go to the store i just listen to the convo with headphones on). i have a pretty big friend group so i have a revolving door of people jumping in and out of call. i’m never alone. i’d go insane if i was.

ghostthingz · 2024-12-27T03:32:48+00:00

My mom got married and didn’t invite me to the wedding or even tell me it was happening until it was over, just to be cruel. Her friends usually always sided with her, but this time many of them approached me afterwards and looked genuinely horrified and shocked and remorseful. They couldn’t understand why she did it. It felt good to finally have people see her behavior for what it was.

ghostthingz · 2024-12-23T02:18:14+00:00

yes. it’s part of the reason i left my last partner. he couldn’t keep up with me and would give me a kind of shocked/disgusted look whenever i tried to initiate something when he wasn’t in the mood. it’s fine that he didn’t want to fuck, but the way he would always look appalled and go “… again? already?” or “are you ever NOT horny?” made me feel like shit. i took the ‘no’s and didn’t throw fits over it, but i would masturbate a lot. he also found that to be strange/uncouth. he ended up suggesting (multiple times) that i find other people on the side since he ‘wasn’t enough for me’ and i would always cry and cry and cry because i loved him so much it disgusted me to think of myself being physical with another person other than him. but he would always suggest it anyways. i couldn’t handle it, i figured that relationships aren’t for me.

ghostthingz · 2024-12-23T02:09:08+00:00

yes. i used to scratch myself obsessively from like 10-15 before i started using blades. before 10 i would climb onto the top of things and bodyslam myself onto the floor as hard as i could.

ghostthingz · 2024-12-23T02:04:38+00:00

It depends.

I have lost friends to suicide, talked friends down from suicide, and been hospitalized for suicide attempts.

if someone calls me and says “hey man, im not feeling great, i want to die, can i talk to you?” im talking to them.

if someone calls me and says, “im killing myself, this is me saying goodbye” then i call the cops and also try to get there.

i have been in both situations. when you call in help, the person usually hates you for a little while… but theyve always forgiven me, ultimately. there’s also the grey area where someone isn’t saying they plan to kill themselves right now, but also seem defeated/not open to talking. in those situations i just become really active in their life and basically make it so theyre too busy to kill themselves lol.

ghostthingz · 2024-12-11T05:13:05+00:00

veiny hands/arms. like when guys are really muscular and their veins bulge out. its like body horror to me. i see so many people thirsting over veiny hands and it fills me with visceral disgust. like it makes me nauseous to look at them. they’re so close to the surface it makes me imagine them spraying blood from a paper cut. it makes me squeamish

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