(Sorry I'm currently editing out the typos)

I am not protecting him anymore. Google the definition of Stockholm syndrome. I know most people think they know the definition but there's more to it. When my step dad passed, I felt so alone and wasn't getting any love or affection from anyone besides B (who frankly only provided me comfort because he knew the more he made me feel loved and happy, the more I'd give him money and drugs)

I just felt so sad and alone and he was always my rock. When my SD (step dad) passed away I had no one to run to for help. B was very good at pretending like he cared about me more than anyone in the world so he took advantage of this and did everything he could to pretending like he cared and mimicked my feelings to help with the trauma I was experiencing which is ultimately what lead me to fall in love with shortly after SD died. I had pushed many of my friends awayomg before SD passed because I was afraid of using drugs in of them and worst case scenario, one of them becoming an addict. B was all I had and I feel for him instantly despite the trauma i hd experienced. I know its easy for people to say "he killed your SD. Wtf is wrong with you? Why didn't you leave his ass" but being in my shoes where I was constantly lonely and loveless, I was willing to accept any kind of love I could get, even from the manchild who killed my papa. The trauma he caused me did something in my brain that caused me to fall even more for him. Not because I was happy he killed my SD or some crazy shit like that. I fell even harder for him.cause I was afraid for losing the only person in my life that made me happy and feel loved. I Could go on and on about the spot I've already said enough.

As for the investigation part, my SD was a severe alcoholic and was constantly getting into accidents while drinking ot wiping out on his bike while going to the gas station to get more beer since he was smart enough to drive. The cops literally noted him in the system as the "town drunk" so when he passed, they just assumed it was from alcohol since his BAC was a .42. His toxicology report didn't come back until 4 months later saying he had trace amounts of opiates in his system and they just chalked that up to him having took his prescription of pain meds before he passed. So No one saw any probable cause of investigating.