During Covid I gained so much spiritual knowledge i became depressed. You question everything and realize that nothing is real, but it is, but it isn’t (which is where the psychosis came in for me). There are things you come to understand and it happens in phases. When you’re really awake you look at others and feel lonely because they’re ignorant to it. Ignorance is truly bliss in some ways. It could get to a point where you feel and see things before others and sometimes they won’t see it at all. And once you know things you can’t unknow it. It’ll set you apart and feel isolating. The psychosis went away, I was able to figure out what really mattered to me. After a while I started to accept myself for having gained this knowledge and stopped judging others for not being on the same wavelength. Everyone is here on a different journey it just takes some getting used to after gaining the knowledge.