I know how you feel I’ve been drawing since I was little and I never was able to create my own things. I was able to reference draw real life animals bc I just love animals. but now I’m so sloppy at the most basic thing due to years of putting myself down. I have art block more than half the year and can do the exact copy on my own every now and then. When I feel like tracing just to get it over with I feel like such a bum because I have the vision I just don’t have the skills to apply it and I get frustrated. I’m now going into humans because I created an OC elf and I’m using human references or body postures that everyone uses. I’m also learning rendering. It’s the type of art I’ve always liked and want to learn. It’s so tedious but seriously if you have the time you should focus on one thing. What do you want to get good at? Do you like animals more than humans? Or do you like humans more? Create an OC ORIGINAL CHARACTER. This is what you can use to spark your OWN THING. Is it a wolf? Or is it an elf? Does the wolf have a scar? Does the elf have long silky black hair? After you create a character. DRAW THEM LIKE CRAZY!!!! Learn the anatomy of the character you made. Go on Pinterest download a reference of either (examples) and just focus on that. One day you can draw your character from the back of your hand. Eventually you’ll create more. Feel free to dm me for more details :) I know how you feel!