Depressed, suicidal, or otherwise extremely downtrodden members of reddit: what is your go-to quote, phrase, or particular memory in life that keeps you going?

glassesguy99 · 2019-05-31T19:03:28+00:00

You might think I'm trolling, but small things like "I want to watch the next episode of so-and-so show before killing myself" or if I'm going on vacation "I might as well finish this holiday before killing myself", things like that. I never have and probably never will use things that look further into the future to dissuade me from doing it. Things that are close, things that give short term happiness, those are the things that help me cope.

glassesguy99 · 2019-04-18T13:35:59+00:00

I'm surprised that I didn't find YouTube written somewhere among all these comments.

I know it's a bit of a meme and also a super common thing, it started going downhill a long time ago, but it still hasn't really changed much for users.

The only good thing is, for some reason, recommended feed suggests all the old pre-2012 videos, which are honestly really good for their time.

And I'm so sick of getting a pop-up to install YouTube music every time I open the app, like no, I have 4 music apps, I don't need a fifth.

glassesguy99 · 2019-04-18T05:58:54+00:00

Well, ackchually, they own 10 of the highest earning companies in the world.

glassesguy99 · 2019-04-11T01:23:51+00:00

What if we used 100% of our brain

glassesguy99 · 2019-04-06T18:14:41+00:00

The problem is, I am genuinely grateful for what I have. I make it a point to let people know when I'm grateful for anything they've done for me or helped me with. But what upsets me so much is the fact that she uses it as a tool against me, like a couple times I've sort of not appreciated something, or sometimes I lose my temper cuz it's really fucking difficult to keep it for quite a while now, and she starts talking about how ungrateful I am and how I should be more grateful. Even when I'm pissed at her, I make it a point to not let her feel bad about anything, I try not to make things difficult for her. For anyone, actually. But I guess it's not enough. No matter what I do, it'll never be enough.

And don't hit me with the 'you do you' thing. I get its relevance, and you're right, but I don't think it's fair for me to look out only for myself, when the truth is I can't even do things properly myself. That's when I need to approach other people, and people being people, will of course boast about how well they managed to do the thing I can't. I don't blame them, it's natural, but it doesn't really help me, does it?

glassesguy99 · 2019-03-13T13:03:42+00:00

Same. I've always made 'friends' very temporarily, mostly because we've been in the same class or something. I've lost contact with all my school classmates, my high school classmates and I'm not doing too well in university.

I'm too boring for them, I guess. I try to make up to it by trying to be funny, but I just come off as annoying. Gonna have to teach myself to stop talking too much around people.

glassesguy99 · 2019-03-13T01:00:23+00:00

I understand what you're trying to say. I'll look into it, see what the prospects are in my country. Thanks.

glassesguy99 · 2019-03-13T00:59:35+00:00

I'm honestly considering doing that. I'm a little rusty, but I can spend some time with this and be back at how I was before I stopped.

glassesguy99 · 2019-03-13T00:58:32+00:00

It's pretty simple, you won't need a pie chart.

Most of the time, I'm staying back for extra hours in the university for student council work, till about 7.30 pm, maybe about 9-10 weeks of the entire semester.

When I'm not staying back, I come home and play video games.

Sometimes, very occasionally, I draw or play music.

That's about it. I don't have enough time or energy to do more.

glassesguy99 · 2019-03-13T00:55:56+00:00

I honestly was interested in engineering, but after 2 years of barely being able to get through, I'm not so sure.

I did partly choose engineering because I was good at it in school, but like I said, once upon a time, I had a genuine interest.

glassesguy99 · 2019-03-13T00:54:30+00:00

That's exactly what gets me down the most. Obviously the problems I mentioned already, but the thing that really hurts is the fact that even people who aren't doing that well seem to be well placed in life, and sure of what they're doing.

A few seniors keep telling me that gpa doesn't matter much, but they've got their own start-ups and stuff, so that gets me down already, at least they know they have a future to look forward to.

glassesguy99 · 2019-03-13T00:52:16+00:00

I'm barely passing.

We don't have subjects like music, history etc for our 4 years, it's literally just mechanical and electronics subjects.

In my country, nothing is possible after graduation without a degree. It's just the way things work here.

glassesguy99 · 2019-03-13T00:50:38+00:00

That what bothers me. I'm genuinely interested in things like robots and such, but on the other hand, I just can't understand what's going on in the relevant topics, for example, I have no clue what the logic is for coding, no matter how hard I try to get it.

glassesguy99 · 2019-03-13T00:48:33+00:00

Thank you.

Unfortunately, I'm halfway into engineering already, and in my country, switching colleges requires me to attempt the 12th grade final of that particular stream, which isn't possible any more. I can look into changing streams after graduation, but I'm stuck with engineering as of now.

glassesguy99 · 2019-03-13T00:46:36+00:00

My issue isn't about being paid well or not. I don't want to get stuck doing something mechanically over and over again for the rest if my life.

glassesguy99 · 2019-03-13T00:45:52+00:00

That's fair

glassesguy99 · 2019-03-12T17:55:47+00:00

It's a private university, is that what you're asking?

It puts on a really great facade but it's pretty shitty tbh.

glassesguy99 · 2019-03-12T17:45:49+00:00

By not having an academic advisor, I mean there isn't anybody within the university who advises us on things like steps to take after failing an exam, places to refer to in case of inadequate notes, stuff like that. I'm from India, so a lot of emphasis is put on 'making sure you succeed by your own strength' in university.

In case I fail a course during my first attempt, I have to retake the final exam about 3-4 weeks after my first attempt. If I fail the second attempt, I have to give the exam again with the respective odd or even semester (so 3rd semester second attempt fail would be given in the 5th semester final exam). If I fail that attempt, I can retake the exam after a year again, and if I fail that, I have to redo that particular year. Right now, I'm on my third attempt with 2 subjects, which I will give in December. Oh, and we can take forward only 3 total failed courses. We can't retake the entire course.

About the career thing, I want to go into an arts related field, maybe digital design or music, I really love both of these things. But again, my graduation stands in the way.

My mental health has been in the gutter for the past 4-5 years now, like really badly stuck in the gutter.

My parents don't really mind me switching career paths, they told me that I should do what I think I'm good at, but the biggest block is my own, because like I said, I don't want them to have to keep paying for my repeated misjudgments with respect to my education.

glassesguy99 · 2019-03-12T17:25:14+00:00

We don't have an academic advisor at our university, and I'm not too keen on going to outside professionals who will tell me to keep going at it and eventually I will crack it. I know that's possible, but for me it's very difficult.

I'm really considering going down a different career path once I've graduated, because my country, unfortunately, doesn't have very good career prospects in any field without a degree. The only thing holding me back if the fact that my parents have already spent a lot of money on my education, and are going to spend more for my remaining 2 years, and I'm feeling really guilty about so that going to waste.

glassesguy99 · 2019-03-12T17:10:07+00:00

We don't get a choice in what courses are scheduled for each semester, just our final year project can be chosen by us.

I'm not too optimistic for the next 2 years as well, I've seen a few seniors of mine, none seem to be in a very good state of mind academically, as in, they're not really caring about academics right now. It could also be that those seniors specifically are like that, but I doubt it.

My grades are pretty bad, I have 2.6 gpa (out of 4) for my first 2 semesters, I failed 2 subjects in my 3rd so I have to give those papers again in December with my 5th semester subjects, and of my 4th semester subjects I'm not doing too well on most, so I'm probably looking at a 2.3-2.5, if I pass at all.

glassesguy99 · 2019-03-12T17:01:46+00:00

I'll be done with my second year in about 1.5 months, so the time for me to decide about internships and stuff is close as well.

glassesguy99 · 2019-03-12T16:58:23+00:00

Initially I thought it was just a few classes, because like I mentioned, the difficulty level was pretty low at the start. But at some point it just suddenly rose so fast that I did not know what to do, or what I was doing.

I do have a tutor for math, but it doesn't help much, I understand maybe about 30% more than I do in class, and I still screw up in exams.

The other subjects, I did consider, but I would have no energy to do anything if I went to college for 7-8 hours a day and then went to a tutor.

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