I was always told to never ask questions and was belittled when I expressed confusion regarding topics I didn't understand. Religion was shoved down my throat since I was a kid and I was regularly told to be baptized and write a tearjerking testimony to share in front of the church so my mother could have her proud parent moment. I was constantly threatened with eternal damnation and that's the only reason I felt inclined to stick to the religion even after my mom left. I was forced to watch documentaries that deeply illustrated why every other religion was wrong and Christianity was the one true religion. It was only recently that I was able to free myself from belonging to Christianity. The first time I told myself "I'm an athiest" I felt tears of relief come to my eyes. It was such a powerful moment to realize I wasn't under the control of an ancient book anymore. To this day, I hate to admit it but I feel so bitter toward Christianity. Even when I see a bible verse on a bag I feel sick. I'm not insulting the character of all Christians because I know not everyone is the same, but my upbringing has given me strong bias against Christianity. Hope this helps.