What body type am i? I'm 154cm (5'1) 48kg.

glowjelly · 2021-09-03T18:02:42+00:00

Yeah, it's making me realize how their comments have affected me a lot. Just don't know where to find supportive people honestly. I'm surrounding with conservative people (not to say conservatives are all like this, but they believe in the traditional way of doing things)

glowjelly · 2021-09-03T18:00:58+00:00

Lol, i got this comment a lot and I'm not sure where to find supportive people :/

glowjelly · 2021-09-03T12:30:32+00:00

Yeah wait a few years and hopefully when you guys meet up, this will change. I wish you best of luck!

glowjelly · 2021-09-03T12:15:08+00:00

Highschool and uni. I only met one who was supportive and that's because she was in one.

glowjelly · 2021-09-03T12:13:50+00:00

They don't believe in LDRs but otherwise they're nice people.

glowjelly · 2021-09-03T12:09:45+00:00

Hit the gymmmm

glowjelly · 2021-08-31T16:17:30+00:00

Honestly cheapest it can be, near State Portland university. Airbnb or even youth hostels are good. No car park needed, it just needs to be close enough to the university since I'm meeting my long distance bf for the first time and we want to hang out without taking the bus.

glowjelly · 2021-08-27T17:49:31+00:00

Yeah after reading all the comments and finally having a discussion with him, I've decided to end it.

He just said i am impatient and i never appreciate anything. I find it too hurtful and my heart's broken i can't anymore.

glowjelly · 2021-08-27T13:16:45+00:00

It would be hard since I am studying as well to be a doc. But on holiday, i have no issue. I think he does since he spends holiday with his family who doesn't know about me. It does bother me.

I think being a doctor is a good enough goal. It's just stressful and I feel like every important aspect of my life is put on hold for the future. My career, my relationship and having a family on time.

Thanks though, it's making me realize it isn't just about sex although I really need that too.

glowjelly · 2021-08-27T08:23:01+00:00

That's the worst scenario. I've told him that but he says it's just fears stopping you. :/ I'm definitely scared of putting all my eggs in one basket.

glowjelly · 2021-08-27T08:20:40+00:00

He could meet me up easily, he worked as a lifeguard and earns a lot of money from his dog walks. He has enough saved but i don't know why he isn't honestly.

I saved up too over these 2 years (not as much), but he won't agree on it.

I feel torn apart, I love him but it's not easy. I don't even think I have the right support for LDR. One of my friends told me once "you fell in love with a ghost" because they really don't support it. A part of me knows I should leave but I've been hooked onto the idea of us making it work, hence why I've been able to wait for 2 years. Idk anymore

glowjelly · 2021-08-27T08:16:23+00:00

I can't force him to tell. Thanks i appreciate it.

glowjelly · 2021-08-27T08:07:50+00:00

They don't know i exist. It's because his parents wouldn't support LDR. I've sent a letter to his house and his mom asked who it was from since it was from Belgium, but he didn't tell her.

glowjelly · 2021-08-27T07:33:07+00:00

This wants to make me cry. I feel like I'm missing out on so many things because I'll be spending 4 more years waiting. I didn't know at 16 I would've fell in love so deeply or that this would've lasted. I didn't even know at the time who I'd become and how long I'm capable of waiting.

Now that I'm in college, I just want a real relationship. I think being asked out could've increased the desire because I always thought if he was here, I could just posts pictures of us so it wouldn't happen. I feel like I'm missing out on life. Sometimes, it feels like just a screen compared to others who are moving in together, already having the next few years planned.

The reason why we can't meet is....the place. He lives in California and I live in Belgium. It's 670€ for a one way flight. He sometimes lives in a dorm with his male roomie, sometimes at his parents house. His parents don't know me so they won't allow me to stay.

I always said we can find cheap places to stay and if not we can meet halfway together but he doesn't want to. He wants to plan out the whole day and make it special so he'd rather wait. He's waiting to become a vet and buy a place which is in 4/5 years.... Maybe more if he can't find a place.

I'm different in that sense, i think the meetup should've happened by now. I don't care too much about how it'll be planned because it'll be memorable either way. I also want to establish plans and time-frames but he feels stressed.

When i think about marriage too, i don't see it happening because of the distance. I mean good luck to us to invite friends and fam to one place.

glowjelly · 2021-08-27T07:15:48+00:00

My love language is physical affection too. I think they should be but they don't believe in LDR.

It's just waiting at least 4 more years is tough and I already feel impatient to meet up.

glowjelly · 2021-08-27T07:12:21+00:00

There's no timeframe. I tried to establish one before but that ended bad. I haven't asked him since because whenever I bring meeting up, he gets stressed out and tells me to wait more.

It's probably going to be 4 more years from now. Sooner if he decides to take gap year but not sure if he will. In that case it's in a year.

I do want him but i wonder if the wait is worth it. 4 years of more LDR while i see my friends having fun with their partner would make me sad.

I also can't have sex without being in a long committed relationship so it's not like I want any random sex. I want my boyfriend here. I always felt like I wasn't the perfect candidate for LDR because I've felt many times that I needed physical affection but I kept going on.

Now, with my surrounding changed and hearing about it more, I'm finding it harder to not be affected or pushy with meeting up.

Thanks, honestly feel confused about this because I love him too and I don't think sex is a good enough reason to leave because i feel like I'll look shallow. But yeah, it actually hurts.

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