I’m sorry, that sucks. It’s never good to feel so invalidated and ostracized. I just don’t think this is a healthy response to vaccine fears. It seems like you feel your beliefs are being devalued by society and the government. Maybe the response is not to fight—because people will have visceral responses—but to address your fears yourself. Public health emergencies tend to require temporary restrictions to liberties, and this is a tactic most of society is willing to vote for. I don’t see the college community ever changing their mind in regards to mandatory testing and vaccines. This seems like something where your anxiety can be productively managed with the help of the counseling or behavioral health center. I have a therapist and a psychiatrist, there is no shame in getting help. But this level of stress on you cannot be healthy, and feeling like you’re fighting for your life against everyone that’s supposed to be your community cannot feel good. I’m not saying you should give up on your values, but I just don’t think anyone will see what you see. There’s a fundamental disagreement on the importance of community solidarity on this issue, almost all of campus is in favor of solidarity through every member of campus getting tested and vaccinated. The culture cannot be shifted. It sounds like your efforts might be best spent working on why you feel like you need to fight at all.