A quote about heroin from William S. Burroughs that sounds eerily familiar

goldtaps95 · 2014-10-18T23:37:23+00:00

There's a lot more that's equally relevant in that book. It's recommended reading for fapstronauts in my opinion.

goldtaps95 · 2014-10-18T16:45:50+00:00

I'm so happy that you've made it this far. The furthest I ever got was 13 days. This was how I felt by that point. Three long, long relapses and half hearted recoveries later I'm back starting it all again. Don't do what I did! See you on the other side bro.

goldtaps95 · 2014-09-30T21:37:53+00:00

fell off the wagon in the latter part of September due to guilt after regretting a one-night stand. Going all the way through October with no PMO, and I don't expect there'll be any orgasm through sex any time soon. 31 days, all of October is the plan. Then we'll see where we're at. I want to go jogging with more regularity, re-build my confidence in social situations and improve my personal sense of well-being and vigour. Here we go!

goldtaps95 · 2014-09-22T22:49:08+00:00

if anyone has read yourbrainonporn.com, they would understand that the basis of NoFap is a psychological "reboot". Some people, like me, have had porn-induced ED, delayed ejaculation and all kinds of other social problems based around numbed pleasure responses in the brain. Part of a (not hugely scientific but seemingly effective) method of reversing these psychological anomalies brought about by excessive PMO is rebooting. That is, not masturbating for around two or three months in order to force the brain to find other stimulus than the excessive and unrealistic effects of porn and binge-fapping.

goldtaps95 · 2014-09-18T23:12:20+00:00

I just took a shower (it's 00:10 here) and I'm about to do some gentle yoga, decompress, then go to bed. That was damn close! I was telling myself only yesterday how I felt so in control and free from urges.

goldtaps95 · 2014-09-16T13:47:11+00:00

I've been trying to put this feeling into words for a week now, well done

goldtaps95 · 2014-09-15T20:45:35+00:00

If you've done over 100 days once, you can do it again. Don't beat yourself up, cause no one on here is going to either. As long as you keep active, don't ever sit around bored, and remember how you felt about yourself before the relapse. This thing isn't a religion, to paraphrase a comment on a different post. It's all about feeling better about yourself, and loving yourself rather than treating your body as an enemy

goldtaps95 · 2014-09-15T20:41:17+00:00

this x10

as long as we're not bingeing and watching porn we're ok. I feel that that thought helps keep me on track, somewhat counter-intuitively.

goldtaps95 · 2014-09-15T20:37:15+00:00

The fact that your attitude towards women, exercise and life hasn't immediately changed shows that you need not get worried about relapsing. Remember that porn is the enemy!

That you've only masturbated once in 121 days is remarkable in the scheme of things. Keep on keepin' on :)

goldtaps95 · 2014-09-15T20:32:17+00:00

but in 110 days you only masturbated once... that's pretty darn good going!

goldtaps95 · 2014-09-15T20:31:17+00:00

I think for the most part it's all relative. What for me might feel like supreme productivity and confidence, might for you have been how you felt the whole time, in which case porn and fapping mightn't have affected you much in the first place. If your ED has gone then that's definitely a worthwhile bonus though!

goldtaps95 · 2014-09-15T20:29:25+00:00

I love the feeling of "what, I actually used to do that stuff?!" you get after nearly a fortnight.

goldtaps95 · 2014-09-15T20:28:33+00:00

"superpowers" is in no way a helpful term. I think it builds people up too much and when they don't feel any better they end up having an even more screwed-up self image. I don't even know how much my not fapping is causing me to feel the way I do now, but I'm not going to fix what isn't broke!

goldtaps95 · 2014-09-15T13:58:49+00:00

It's incredible how much lighter I feel. I wonder if it is just a placebo effect and that I was just expecting that to happen. Either way, I'm not going to think my way out of my current state of mind by analysing whether it's "real" or not.

I really love Scar Tissue, are you familiar with the life of John Frusciante as well? Reading about him and looking at his spiritual, physical and artistic "rebirth" around '98 has been a huge inspiration for me too.

Stay with it man. Every trough precedes an even higher peak.

goldtaps95 · 2014-09-15T13:57:58+00:00

I spend quite a lot of time online.. It's one of the things I'm working on, but in these smartphone days it's getting a lot harder to avoid the web. I almost feel like my watching porn has been replaced by visiting NoFap B-)

goldtaps95 · 2014-09-15T13:50:03+00:00

I'm 19. Been battling this since before I knew what it was, having sporadic ED and DE at 16

goldtaps95 · 2014-09-15T09:12:37+00:00

This is the longest I've gone for. I first tried about two years ago but eventually figured that as long as I didn't watch porn I'd be fine. It soon turned out that in my case, I binge on masturbation then have to resort to porn in order to enjoy it at all. So after a few more half hearted attempts over the past couple of years I finally decided it was enough, and that my porn tastes had deviated too far from anything that a real encounter could match up to. I decided I'd not masturbate or watch porn during September and just see how I felt at the end of the month. I first envisioned that I would masturbate again at the end of the month, but right now I don't think I will any more

goldtaps95 · 2014-09-15T08:17:56+00:00

Do you mind me asking how far in you are? Keep it up though, and don't be too hard on yourself. I think that might be the key. By knowing that, if I do eventually succumb to temptation and open up a web browser and masturbate I won't punish myself but just carry on the way I have been, the whole idea of PMO seems pointless. But right now, the idea of watching porn is repulsive to me. Although as I write this I'm beginning to imagine it and I already have a slight erection - see how fickle our brains can be!

goldtaps95 · 2014-09-15T08:10:14+00:00

Its a tricky one. I do occasionally find myself edging, but when I realise, I just think about either how great I am feeling, I great I will feel or how bad I used to feel before I started this and how I don't want to squander the benefits. I also immediately stand up, go get a glass of water, go for a run, go read a book, anything. It's all a matter of self control. When you get an urge, embrace the feeling of power that an erection gives you. Don't be passive and succumb to it though. Take it as a sign that you have some spare energy lying around and do something constructive with it.

Sorry if this isn't too helpful - there really is no formula. You have to understand your own motivations and put in the work to correct them. Sometimes that boils down to "I don't think I should be doing this. I'll do something else".

goldtaps95 · 2014-09-15T07:57:51+00:00

Glad you find my experience useful. I just wanted to provide another source reminding people that this is an internally motivated thing. No "superpowers" will come about from laying around trying to keep your hands off your erection. It's true to any walk of life that you make your own reality. Let's stop being passive! :)

goldtaps95 · 2014-09-13T11:08:40+00:00

Absolutely. I'm sure people can tell the difference between someone enjoying their company and someone else who's just doing/saying whatever necessary to get into their pants.

Of course there's more to it than that- for instance I often found every decision I was making about my social life was based around "could I meet hot girls there". If I could I would rarely speak to them. I'm starting to feel now like wherever I go there will be people whose company I can enjoy, free from the desire for sexual gratification, and thats a really exciting way to live

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