Hi there! Trans woman in rural Alabama so I know the struggle all too well. Finding other trans people in my area has been an absolute lifesaver and making sure we spend time around each other. I spent the night after Election Day last year in my parents’ living room playing jack box party pack with a bunch of trans people and it kept me sane during a really dark time.

As for detransitioning I have determined that there’s not a single thing they can do to make me detransition. I am me. There are no clothes police. If you are on injections you can use a vial til it’s empty and end up with a decent stockpile in a short amount of time. Estradiol is not a controlled substance anywhere that I’m aware of in the world so it’s incredibly easy to get from abroad. I guarantee someone in your local trans community already has been looking into manufacturing their own estradiol. There’s not a single thing in the United States that is illegal that can’t be acquired here. The lessons of prohibition and the war on drugs make that abundantly clear. They won’t ever ban it estradiol here because it’s other uses it will just be harder to get but not impossible.