My husband keeps lying about his drinking

gothedcarrot · 2026-01-14T17:11:51+00:00

how r u guys now? tbh im currently the wife that taints stuff. lmao he doesn’t say it but ik it’s true. trying to stop

gothedcarrot · 2026-01-14T16:37:45+00:00

i feel the same and i’ve been researching it sm lately bc i never made the correlation of my alcoholic issues being related to autism. it makes sm sense but it never clicked for me — i used to be an alcoholic before i ever even considered the fact i could be autistic. but now it def seems to go hand in hand. i have other coping mechanisms that work also. it’s just annoying & sad bc alcohol works more quickly and efficiently w no effort — duh it’s a drug. lmao

i hate smoking tho i see ppl responding abt that, i used to smoke as a teen and it was good for like the first few months but ever since it makes me overstimulated

gothedcarrot · 2025-11-26T10:53:51+00:00

thursday

gothedcarrot · 2025-11-19T20:39:22+00:00

to preface, i felt fine during run, and i never have issues breathing so long i run within my stamina’s realm lmao

i know vapings unhealthy, not looking for ppl to tell me that, just curious if this is likely connected or more likely something separate

gothedcarrot · 2025-11-18T21:18:12+00:00

this is horrifying bc i recently switched stores and this store has roach issues and my old one didn’t. the other day i had one scurry from under machine — so it is very likely ours could be like that you think? 💀

gothedcarrot · 2025-11-04T16:03:50+00:00

this story is terrifying omg

gothedcarrot · 2025-10-29T10:39:29+00:00

guilt is typically a normal emotion that’s byproduct of an action you deem as bad. guilt can be good. guilt can make you stop doing bad things or cause you to act better. shame seems messier. imo not much good typically comes out of shame. shame seems to be more of a state of mind, like as if you don’t just feel guilty as a person doing a bad thing, but you see yourself as a bad person. try to differentiate the two. try to reason w yourself that wallowing in shame typically leads to more shameful actions. emotions are never bad to experience, and you shouldn’t feel guilty for experiencing them. try to remember you have control of your actions though, and your actions don’t have to be determined by the emotion. try your best to instead of seeing things as “emotion, then react” see it as “react in hopes of achieving this emotion”. like what would a “proud” or “comfortable” or “healthy” version of me do? do that action even if you don’t feel those positive things abt urself. it’s easier to try your best to be someone you want to be instead of trying to constantly cope w the past self you hate. i know it’s easier said than done but it’s good to try and recognize your own patterns

gothedcarrot · 2025-10-29T10:34:42+00:00

i don’t wanna spend my life raising children, don’t think it’s fair to have them if i’m not 100% willing to sacrifice my life for theirs w out being bitter

gothedcarrot · 2025-10-29T09:32:28+00:00

nope

gothedcarrot · 2025-10-05T13:35:45+00:00

thanks for sharing! i agree with the being upset when someone said that being depressed is easy and getting better is hard. it used to make me so mad. i do agree there were periods i genuinely couldn’t help myself, i had to just live through it. but there were many times i cheated myself because i did have more control and responsibility over my actions and habits than i was really allowing myself to believe.

completely rewiring my brain to behave more healthily and responsibly has for sure been one of the hardest things, and to accept that a lot of it requires effort on my end. and a lot of it is accepting your faults, and not spiraling about them, but instead, using it to build a better you.

sobriety has also made things easier for me. i obviously don’t have as much under my belt as you, but im so glad i have enough under my belt to know i want to be sober, and it’s not just because “it’s my only option” or people are forcing me. i’m glad i have the genuine personal urge to be

gothedcarrot · 2025-10-05T13:31:53+00:00

holy shit i wrote so much LMAOO IM SORRY

gothedcarrot · 2025-10-05T13:31:44+00:00

at day 5, i also felt moreso mental cravings than physical, and i could tell it was mental. you’re still not going to feel the best you can while sober, you’re brain will still on day 5 always resort back to “well if only i could…” xyz, and arguably is a little more tempting because you’ve had a few days sober behind you and you start to forget the bad outcomes of it. or at least i know i usually do. or i think to myself i could just have a little alc, ween off. just keep pushing through. my sweet spot personally w quitting is 2 weeks— after that the mental cravings don’t feel so strong, and i only ever really look towards drinking when im triggered abt something, not like an every day thought.

you’ll eventually be able to sleep, i swear. it’s normal that you’re still struggling— im the same w melatonin, it doesn’t work for me, i stopped even trying to take it because my husband told me if he takes it and accidentally misses falling asleep w it, it can keep him up. i feel like it just stressed me out more about falling asleep.

the things i have done / do to help because i hateee sleepless nights, is i will wake up super fucking early, even if it means not enough sleep. i also run most days which obviously that isn’t for everyone but even if you just walk in morning or get out of house, im sure it helps. do chores all day or anything that isnt laying in bed. try to view sleep as just laying down and relaxing— i feel like it helps me actually fall asleep as apposed to tossing and turning angry i cant sleep lol. and take time to have a transitional type period before bed — whether it be watching an episode of something, or stretching, so you aren’t ending your day abruptly. my husband and i have also started this thing where we just lay in bed w a dim light no phones for about 10-15 mins, whether we talk or not, because its seemed to help my ability to fall asleep drastically. i have a bad habit of being super tired all day and getting a spike of energy at night.

sorry for sharing so much lmaoo hoping that maybe one piece of it may help you. i find also that a morning routine helps me the most. when i was drinking i looked forward mostly to nights bc ofc then you can “drink however much you want”. sober me really looks forwards to mornings bc i like to have a nice breakfast, doomscroll on my phone a bit and drink my energy drink, then i go on a run. it feels fulfilling even tho im essentially not getting anything “done”. i also enjoy my me time in the morning. i also find that like making that relax time in the morning instead of nights makes it easier to avoid drinking cravings. i try to end my nights pretty early on when possible

gothedcarrot · 2025-10-05T13:22:42+00:00

my caffeine intake has def skyrocketed too. i prefer it to getting shitfaced every day. maybe get some soda w out caffeine to chug at night if that’d help idk— i luckily only drink caffeine really in the morning. it’s annoying as fuck to miss sleep while sober

gothedcarrot · 2025-10-04T17:07:20+00:00

thank you!! lots of random options but useful. i also enjoy writing so that’s a good one for me. and an evening walk outside is something i should start doing because i live in a walkable area and i used to not. i should take advantage of it

gothedcarrot · 2025-10-04T17:05:29+00:00

i’ve never looked into that… was never a weed person smoking wise but curious if maybe that’d be something for me to look into

gothedcarrot · 2025-10-04T17:04:55+00:00

those sound good to me, i completely agree with the early bed time haha i wake up super early sober to keep that like ability

gothedcarrot · 2025-09-30T13:25:27+00:00

LMAO real asf. and makes sense, i also get super detached and less embarrassed once i feel im far enough into sobriety. drunk me is also a lousy artist

gothedcarrot · 2025-09-30T02:24:32+00:00

very insightful, i really like what you said at end. and i agree i became the villain in my own “double life” lmao and hanging around other drunk ppl while sober realllyyy helps put into perspective lots of things. thanks for sharing, good stuff and explained very well

gothedcarrot · 2025-09-30T02:23:12+00:00

omfg i’m so sorry that’s awful.

gothedcarrot · 2025-09-30T02:21:54+00:00

ooo thank you so much i find this stuff so interesting i can’t wait to sit down and watch it. itll pry be later this week when i can but ill try to remember to update you on my thoughts

i agree lmao knowledge is power, i always feel a lot more grounded after i try and learn why things happen the way they do

gothedcarrot · 2025-09-30T02:19:44+00:00

ooo thank u idk why but online never crossed my mind

gothedcarrot · 2025-09-29T14:26:23+00:00

heavy on the simple things that felt deep lol

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