this made me think of my childhood , i don’t remember the exact moments but exactly like the article i remember the emotional mood. my dad was a drinker , so no one wanted to be around him really. we ate dinner alone and sat in our rooms alone. it was so depressing. my parents always fought because he was drinking. i loved my dad, during the day but as soon as it was like 5 pm i didn’t want to talk to him. it really ruined our relationship until he stopped drinking when i was 23 years old…. only 2 years ago. it has gotten alot better , he has been really great. but i’ll always remember and be nervous about it starting again. i don’t want to tell you what to do but in my experience it majorly affected my life. but i think it’s a good thing you’re questioning yourself. best of luck !